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God my head hurts so bad I want to die so I can live a stress free afterlife
I'm so tired of having episodes I wish I could just cut myself or bruise myself again like I used to but it won't do me any good and will inevitably lead to my death even though I want to die I don't want it to be this soon. This sucks...
I did a panel redraw of me in the School Zone Girls manga a while back...
/s4s/ is the best 4chan board ever :3 the kind board :3
This is nice board!!! :3 Baord of niceness ^_^ nicers interact :DDD
It's the weekend, and this poor menhera boy has so much homework to do, waaa.... at least some of my teachers know about my mental illness. Please hope that I finish most of it before Monday :'3
Please don't feel bad for me... I did all of this to myself.
To be loved is to be abused by the ones you love the most.
abuse me degrade me use me hurt me punch me kick me slap me choke me belittle me hate me make fun of me embarrass me cut me and
I need to be abused and held
Please tell me I'm cute even though I'm not.
Hiiii you're amazing and wonderful and really relatable (♡ω♡ )
Also can I be 🫁 anon???
Sure!! ^^ I'm glad there's people who relate to my struggles <:3 thank you 🫁 anon...
Omg!! D: My poor jirai frens are being attacked... join this forum if you can!! ^^
I'm happy you're back!! ♡
But... why is this happening? Like, what's the reason of this sudden attack? This is happening to the people in the jirai community, so there must be someone out there who's trying to make us disappear on purpose...
I have no clue but 2 my knowledge theirs been four of us t worded within only a couple days so go join thos forum!
Hello everyone! I'm looking for friends Jirai and Menhera to free my soul from the loneliness of being a bumpkin !
I'm Nova I decided to create this account to post silly things and sometimes silly pictures of myself and my purple hair
Welcome everyone 🙏｡◕‿◕｡
my ugly bastard of an ex situationship tried snapping me from his friend's phone after two years of straight degrading, harrassing, and bullying me because i didn't let him hit. so i did what any self-respecting woman would do: i screenshotted it and posted it on my public story.
now he's getting flamed by the whole fucking school ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧
ruin a moid's social life today ! 𖹭
i wish people actually saw me as human 😂😂😂
i wish he would cut me. i want him to hold my wrist tenderly and slide the blade through my veins as he kisses my forehead and praises me for taking it so well. maybe he'd even wash and bandage them afterward and give me aftercare. i want to experience that intimacy of inflicting and receiving pain together. i want i want i want
Do you think it's cute that I'm so fucking stupid? Tell me that it is, 'cos I'm tired of being useless.
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I'm in the middle. Jirai shouldn't be about embracing or celebrating self destruction. But that doesn't mean we should shun or neglect people that possess such darkness.
Jirai is about realising the beauty in darkness and learning to love yourself in spite of your flaws.
Don't explore an aesthetic and movement oriented around instability and false smiles pretending it's supposed to be happy and sweet and at all times.
Should I leave? I’m pro recovery and I don’t care or mind fashion onlys but don’t try to twist and turn the meaning to fit how you want it. While pushing away the originators of it into a corner.
I get so goddamn sick and tired of this. This is the one subculture where I get to fully express my emotions without being shamed as being “a downer” and “ruining the fashion”. If the meaning and story of jirai bother you so much, don’t claim it. Just be fucking dark girly.
I find both to be isolating in their own way. So, consider them carefully.
No communication is the obvious isolation, and it gets worse when you consider the danger involved with having no vocal, written, or signed voice. But, to speak every thought could cause its own problems.
How often do you have unspeakable intrusive thoughts? How often do emotions shape your thoughts to contradict your true feelings? It could get you into serious trouble or sever all of your bonds. Sure, you could try explain yourself and work with friends to correct the matter... But what's to say their reaction to the initial upset won't make you say worse things?
The question is a matter of choosing your own prison. At least for me.
I'm dependent on others so a loss of ALL communication destroys everything for me. But I'm also emotionally unstable and generally struggle to maintain bonds already. If I vocalised every thought and feeling, I'd probably look insane. I'd probably hurt too many friends.
Is it just me, or is this a cruel choice?
This and also reblogging random shit to my vent blog lmao
