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Five ✘ Lila • Alone Together

We are so lucky to have such wonderful authors defending this ship ☂️🚆🍓

Savor each word, savor the tension (always), savor the happy ending (so rare) ❤️

New One-shot Alert

My Five X Lila Strip poker one-shot is finally done!

A Preview:

Five expelled his drink, coughing into his fist afterward.

Lila’s eyes widened as she leaned over, patting him on the back a few times as he gasped and sputtered. “I-I’m sorry—” he wheezed. “I-I thought you said ‘strip’—”

“Oh, no. You heard right,” she reassured calmly.

“What the fu-How can-Are you—?!” Five rapidly protested, suddenly squeezing his eyes shut, his expression annoyed and aggrieved in equal turns. “What am I saying? Of course, you’re insane—”

“Oi! You said I get to pick—!”

“Yes, Lila. I did,” Five admitted, his voice strained as he tried to be patient. “But why would you—?!”

“What? Afraid of losing your precious Puritanical sense of propriety because you’re shite at cards—”

“Two things, senior psychopath. One, I am most certainly not ‘shite’ at cards. You must not have read my file too closely while you were at the Commission, because if you had you would know the identity of the only known person to have bested James Hickok in a game of cards—”

“Wild Bill?!” Lila gasped as Five kept talking.

“—Two, you are my brother’s wife—not to mention my best friend!” Five hissed as if worried someone might hear him.

“Aw, old man, I’m touched—!” Lila fawned, only to be cut off.

“Don’t change the subject! Playing strip poker is practically cheating!” he snapped.

Lila rolled her eyes. “Puh-lease! One, there is no way you are telling me you beat Wild Bill and even think for a second, that we’re not going to play! Two, playing strip poker is most certainly not cheating—”

“How the hell do you figure—?!”

“It’s not like we’d even be touching—”

“We’d be naked—!”

“You might be, loser—”

“Regardless of who might be naked in this scenario, Lila, the point still stands that it is obviously —”

“Have you forgotten that you’ve already seen me starkers as it is?” Lila smirked, folding her arms. “Or am I the only one that remembers?”

Lila watched as a vein began to throb at Five’s temple as he gritted out, “You were trying to kill me; forgive me for being a little preoccupied.”

“Not at all! You honestly ought to thank me for even giving you another chance at eyeing the goods!”

Lila watched in amusement as Five gnashed his teeth in frustration, his face growing red. She was unsure if it was from anger or embarrassment.

“We’re both adults, old man; playing a friendly game! Nothing untoward. You Americans are always so touchy about nudity. There are plenty of cultures where family members see each other naked all the time—!”

“Lila, it’s not because we’re—"

“Besides, the human form is natural; not necessarily only sexual,” Lila reasoned, knowing Five well enough to know that an appeal to his sense of logic would be difficult for him to argue against. Although she could think of one other appeal he’d struggle to overcome: an appeal to his sense of pride.

“You’re just afraid I’ll show you up,” Lila grinned.

She liked the way his eyes blazed when he was truly beginning to lose his patience. The way he clenched his jaw, making a muscle jump in his cheek.

“Or worse, that you might like what you see~” Lila whispered, teasing.

Five’s face went scarlet.

Lila felt her heartbeat quicken.

Lila loved ruffling his feathers, flirting and teasing; taunting and baiting; and disturbing his carefully constructed world.

She loved it from the moment they met, and it had only grown over the years.

She remembered when they'd first been enemies, the way his anger and pain had felt like a balm to her soul.

When his bitterness had tasted so very sweet.

Even now, with his brother—her husband—no one else had ever given her this feeling. That spike of adrenaline and dopamine that rushed through her veins like a drug. That thrill that made her heart race.

Her life felt drab, stifling, and joyless sometimes; like she was dragging her feet through a gray, lackluster existence.

And then Five would come along, brightening her life and splashing her universe in technicolor. If she was Dorthy, he was her Oz and she never wanted to go back to Kansas.

She does.

[...]

The place with the strawberries (Fanfic)

Imagine Five never found that little black notebook on the subway tracks so him and Lila remain stuck in their own alternate timeline. Their relationship blossoms slowly over time and they create a life together at ‘the place with the strawberries’. Time can change everything, especially minds and hearts. This a tragic love story. Mature themes.

( I didn't write this but it was well done so thought other fans would enjoy the read ♥ )

*waves shyly* So, this is my first Five X Lila story. Please, take care of me 🙇🏻‍♀️

☂️🚆🍓 Love, and other things that won’t stay buried

Summary: Five didn’t kiss Lila in the strawberry greenhouse that day. But it doesn’t mean he won’t another day.

Hey guys,

This is my modest contribution to the wonderful people of the FiveLila community. To the many amaaaazing writers and artists, its thoughtful members and incredible supporters 💜

You’ve brought me back to fanfictions. To tumblr. To ao3.

You’ve fueled my obsession with this ship for the past month and a half—you’ve played with my heartstrings, sometimes making it ache even more, and other times spreading healing balm on my broken heart.

Gosh, I feel like a girl in love—living in a daze, listening to love and break up songs, feeling hot and dizzy, and constantly checking my phone for updates of the community... so, here’s a small token of love to all of you.

I hope you’ll enjoy this piece as much as it kept me obsessed day in, day out, trying to find the right words, and make sense of the one scene that started the whole story.

It’s been a years— more than a decade even—since I last wrote anything. Much less in English. So, I apologize in advance for any typos, grammatical errors or weird wordling and phrasing.

These are the first two chapters. I'm still trying to wrap things up, so I figured, I'll post the first part to test the waters with you all 🙏

I’d love any feedback to know if I should train or warm up a bit more before our little appreciation week in October. I have some ideas, but I needed to get this one out first. 💜

Merci 😊

This is the third chapter of “Love, and other things”. Hope you’ll enjoy it as much as the beginning 😊

Summary: Everything comes together, before crashing down (of course).

(TUA s4 spoiler)

Surprised? A pair of equaly smartass obnoxious brats-former assasins, both harbored hatred at first but by circumstance reluctantly became partners. In the course of 6 years got lost together in space and time, only had one-another as companion to travel timeline by timeline while fighting side by side in order to - Survive - Find a way back and Stop an Apocalypse in their own home, overtime gradually falling for another.

This 🔝 is what was taken from us, a glimpse into the lost time, this is why I am FOREVER stan that Five & Lila is the one very understandable thing compared to every monstrosities they thrashed in TUA s4.

And when ones still in the proceed of he wouldn't/ she wouldn't. I can write a big a** essay about they would, yeah, they would HARD.

It will have the first paragraph of canon events like - Please gather here for context, what was conveniently be forgotten :

s1 - s3: Happened in 28 days EST (depend on characters)

D!ego & Lila actually met and get together in 20days - few months give or take with Lila traveling in time : Lila found out she was pregnant, always had dreamed about a family she couldn't have , well, when D!ego is a responsible good man who she had feelings for was right there.

-> boy & girl built a family together after few months because the girl (killer - assassin past/ manipulative skills) got pregnant so asked the good boy (made of big chunk hero complex spice with abit mummy issue) for a family.

(keep in mind i'm talikng context, never judged anyone /anything)

Every single one of Hargreeves's sblings wanted to walk out of the family at one point or another. Have experienced love for family and love between lovers (2 souls who match in all levels) - (must i clarify those are totally different kind of love?)

mr.Five - mr.i know best - authority complex (from being the oldest) respectfully disrespect every sblings. Meanwhile showing his questionable ability to control his emotions (the irony is this made him a loveable character)

s4: After 6 years in the new timeline:

Girls got tired, Boys got tired, siblings all so tired.

mr.Five showing his questionable ability to control his emotions. Have experienced love for family and love between lovers (2 souls who match in all levels) (I should clarify those are totally different kind of love)

All of the above pulled out from watching the show, and i can write more about the Subway storyline is not that out of blue for their characters. Anyone shared the same thoughts is welcome.

This is inspired by a quote "May you find someone who speaks your language so you don't have to spend a lifetime translating your soul"

♥Shy stolen looks♥

These two...I swear~ ♥ Can cover any relationship trope. Here is still the sweetest and most at peace either one of them has been. Five gazing at lila - both of them becoming mentally healthy again. Healing from what they have been through. Lila meeting his gaze but Five still not saying anything. The adorable stolen looks to each other when they think the other isn't looking. Lila wanting his attention, Five being playful by ignoring her till she keeps poking at him for acknowledgment. Their little flirting game was quite romantic ♥

As much as you guys hate to admit it, the Five and Lila pairing makes sense and was not at all utter bullshit as you guys are making it seem.

From the time Lila was introduced, she came in as a strong character that's wild, sexy, fun, and a bit deranged. She's a badass character! And what happens? She meets Diego in a point in her life where she was at the height of chaos and adventure. They fall in love, or in a toxic situationship filled with family drama and mother/father issues.

Now let's look at Five. His situation is overall fucked. Imagine being some kid that grew up with space/time travel powers and getting stuck in time, having to grow up pretty much before all of his siblings, and then having to come back in his KID body and still have to fix THEIR problems on top of dealing with his own mental issues that he acquired and loneliness. Reminder that he would not have had a partner due to his inconvenient life/appearance.

Lila and Diego are in this marriage with kids after trying to live a "normal" life. Lila feels stuck because she basically trauma bonded with some guy that happened to be there and was able to put up with her issues and vice versa. Diego was convenient. And from what I see, she really just wanted to make a family she didn't have. Their relationship is kinda out of obligation for their kids at this point, and neither of them are happy.

At this point, Five and Lila get stuck in time together after having previously been on opposite sides but coming together for family sake. From the beginning they matched each other's energy and even I would say they complement each other. They both have explosive personalities filled with sarcasm, snark, and a bit of humor. They both enjoy danger and a rough tussle. That's all they have known.

At this point, both Five and Lila have experienced so much in their lives, so much adventure already. They are ready to settle down, because sometimes love is the adventure you're looking for in this crazy world.

And look I get it. Badass lady is reduced to housewife trope that shouldn't exist unless within character. But can we really say this is out of character for Lila? She always does the unexpected, so her going off to be a spy is what we would expect, for her and Five.

And I also get that you guys think that Five would never betray his family like that. This isn't a perfect world and neither are these characters. If anything, we've seen Five do things for his own self interest over what the family/others want. Same for Lila.

Add in the loneliness of DECADES from Five and the trapped loneliness Lila feels within her marriage, and the fact they they go on another mission together over SEVEN years, mixed with their explosive dynamic and you have a pairing.

And explosion seems to be the theme for this season right? With Ben and Jennifer. Sometimes 2 exlosive chemicals become more stable rather than creating a blast. And maybe each other is what Five and Lila needed. They both understand each other in ways Diego could never understand Lila. Lila also understands Five's predicament like no other, having lived it first hand with him in the Seven years. It's only natural that they would come together. Lila and Diego were eventually going to divorce because they weren't compatible. Lila has always had the most chemistry with Five.

I get the cheating and in no way do I excuse it, but these characters have no idea when they will ever get back home and if. I think they would go absolutely crazy if they didn't have each other. In this time, they realized how similar they are and ended up being a better match. They found what they were looking for in each other. And you can't deny their connection like come on.

In my experience, in the real world, love is messy and not perfect. Sometimes finding love is your next adventure after you've live a life like no other. Maybe this will be good for them.

Also, they writers arent crazy or out of pocket, you guys just need to grow up.

time travel is a massive head trip, I grant you... but things are still real, they're just moving by so fast you get dizzy with the changes.

The other side of everything

I think all of you have read the repeated sentences about what's wrong with Fivelila. So I thought I'd write my thoughts on it and maybe some of my headcanon.

1) Age gap

Problem: Ritu is 15 years older than Aidan. Five and Lila have an age difference in both directions, mentally he is much older and physically she is older.

My take: About the age of the actors, I'll say this much - the opposite is so common and many people don't find it strange. For example, did you know that Julia Roberts was 23 when her film Pretty Woman came out and that Richard Gere is 19 years older than her? And I haven't noticed anyone being disgusted by how that's possible. I could find some more extreme differences, but I don't think I want to.

Aidan is 21 and yes, he did TUA when he was younger, but a lot of people still think he's a kid. But no, he's not. Deal with it.

My headcanon: Lila is older than she looks. And that's thanks to the Handler and the work she does for the Commissions. Does any of us know how long has she lived somewhere outside of time? Sounds like another possible parallel to me.

2) Lila was cheating on Diego

Problem: Lila was unfaithful to her husband.

My take: Lila made it clear that she wanted a break with Diego and wanted to reconsider their marriage. Yes, the circumstances ended up being pretty wild, but it was more than obvious that she wasn't happy in the marriage. Among other things, it was over six and a half years for her before anything happened with Five. There are countries where such a long separation between spouses could also help to bring about an immediate divorce if necessary.

I also think that the only thing that connected them the most was their children and not that they were compatible as partners. A completely natural thing that happens really often in real life when someone builds a relationship on desire, which they mistake with love.

3) Five is homewrecker

Problem: Five is the reasons why his brother's family fell apart.

My take: It's not true. Five was not the reason that Lila and Diego had problems in their marriage. Yes, she was still his brother's wife and that's a bit morally grey, but their situation was complicated enough (as I wrote in the previous point) and it's completely understandable. By the way, don't people like this family precisely because their morals are often a bit grey? I guess that's probably only true sometimes, huh?

4) Five cheated on Dolores

Problem: Five was unfaithful to Dolores

My take: Sorry, but this is the biggest piece of shit ever. If someone prefers a relationship that Five made up in his mind just to keep himself from going crazy and heal his trauma, then our fandom isn't the one that's wrong. By the way, if Dolores was real and played by Rachel Delduca, she's definitely older too! I couldn't find the exact age, but it's pretty obvious that she's older than Aidan.

5) Five killed Lila's parents

Problem: Five was the killer of Lila's family and Handler could have kidnapped her. Her family may be alive, but it won't change the past.

My take: Yes, this is about the only thing that could never work in another story. Lila gets her family back, but it doesn't change what happened to her. Still, I think even she knows very well what it's like to work for the Commission and what it was like when an order came down. Handler bears most of the blame, even though she wasn't the one who killed them.

My headcanon: I don't think Lila had clean hands either, though we never really saw that much in the story. Still, even she could have been the murderer of some random parents of some random kids because that was her job. For example, she killed several people on the Commission to get access to past records in the barn, so it would be a bit hypocritical for her to blame others for actions that she herself had done before.

If you have any other thing I should discuss, please post it in the comments, I'll do another post about it.

The vociferous ship antis sure love to spam a ship tag just to scream hate into a space that's not for them. There's a much longer form of thoughts on the series that I've been working on forever, but here's some brief ones about Five/Lila/Diego:

Lila didn't ask for a separation out of nowhere, neither did Lila and Diego's marriage randomly collapse. They had a shotgun marriage after barely knowing each other for a few weeks at most and their marriage has been worsening for 6 years with Diego openly resenting his wife, kids, and in laws on the daily. He's always had an issue with her keeping things from him and assumes the worst of her. Lila is severely burnt out with the endless mental load of the entire family of 5 that she's carrying alone. Lila tried to find a way to deal with the unhappiness on her own, not wanting even more negative reactions from him than he already constantly expresses. The supposed point of the New Grumpson trip was them spending time as a duo without the kids and Lila and Diego did talk through the respective issues they have with one another, but it's made clear they have unreconcilable differences to the point that they can't even get along in a literal life or death situation. She will always care about him as the father of their kids, but their relationship as a couple doesn't work.

It should be normalized to end toxic relationships, especially toxic marriages, and I'm glad to see Lila did so. Lila didn't cheat on Diego, she amicably, verbally separated from Diego and she didn't even start a new relationship until over 6 and a half years after the separation and she almost died endless times. Dating wasn't even on her mind, Diego kept projecting it on her, she just wanted to go enjoy doing what she liked, which is going on missions and figuring things out, until she got trapped in the mercurial subway out of time. Five and Lila kept each other safe and in positive spirits through the hell they endured for years and years before they found romantic love with each other. They got to know each other extremely well before they went to that next step. Five being Diego's brother also isn't anything wrong. Five himself is single and available and always sees things how they are and the marriage was over in the present and then long over for years with in the subway with the situation looking like they will be in the subway forever before things change between Five and Lila. TUA has always been a morally grey series with these characters being the morally greyest of them all and they didn't even cheat or home wreck in the context of their nuanced situations. It's just arbitrary to impose absolute morals on them all of a sudden to be contrary for the sake of it, especially when there's so much actually in the text to show how things played out the way they did.

Chapter 4 of "Love, and other things" is out ❤

So here's my gift for the Hargreeves' birthday 🎈 There's a scene that *could* be a present I guess 😉

Hope you'll enjoy the read!

Summary: Must everything always end in tears? (spoilers: the answer is 'no' of course 😂)

Note 1: To be honest, the story could have ended here too... But the story had a mind of its own, so there's just a little more coming until the finishing line 🙂

Note 2: If you care to look for it, there's just one sentence, that refers to something canon, that hints to how I'm handling the next chapter 😁

I can't get over that look of love and everlasting devotion.

Marigold Semi-existence Musings

So was discussing the likely possibility of the marigolds being their souls in their own purgatory in the park with someone on discord. How their sense of self may have still been retained with memories, telepathic communications between them. Since this was a way for them to still exist. Just giving up their earthly bodies to not impact the timelines with interference in a negative manner. Allison had said, "Maybe we'll meet again." Five responding "That would be nice..." Tying in to them being the marigolds. A small mercy from the universe or perhaps the mysterious little girl who could represent god or the devil according to Klaus. I'm confident in saying that the two marigolds leaning into each other, practically nuzzling are Five and Lila. Their love story coming to fruition was meant to be the focus of this season originally. Budget and time cuts limited that but their scenes together still painted the picture of the tale. Evoking the proper emotions. Wouldn't have made sense for Lila/Diego since they didn't have more loving scenes together. Apologies riddled with guilt and the need for closure before the end can't be misconstrued for acceptance in love. The season went out of the way to show how that love had withered on the vine over time. Showrunner essentially said they couldn't come back from that and she would have been with five as well. Was reading up on the meaning behind marigold flowers and in the language of flowers; when they are given to someone they are said to represent love and ever lasting devotion. Couldn't help but remember five during the bracelet scene.

Another interesting fact is that the flower is used to help guide the souls of the dead back to the land of the living. Given how the umbrella's sacrificed themselves but their souls are still part of the original timeline, watching familiar faces they saved in a subtle way at the park. A flower that was cultivated by the ancient civilization, the Aztecs. This meaning behind them is why they are often used to celebrate the holiday Dia de los Muertos.

So thankful for @just-b-wilde's work, both with video edits and fanfictions. She's one of the contributors who makes the @@fivelila-fandom feels so welcome, alive and productive! 💜💜💜

If you don't know her work yet, don't walk, run.

→ All my Fivelila video edits 🚇🍓☂️

Chapter 5 of "Love, and other things" is out ❤

This chapter is dedicated to @gaishnik When I was wondering whether to end the world or not (because I Am The Author 😎), I remembered that cute fanart they did :

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if Lila had gotten into Five's deli

And thus, this is how the story went. Hope you'll enjoy this chapter ❤

For this chapter, I ask for your suspension of disbelief. 🙏

Sneak peek :

The other Five was still lounging in his booth. His face was blank as he gave a long look at their laced fingers before leaning back and giving Five a steel glare. The silent showdown could have dragged on—until a plate slid in front Lila. 

“Your favorite, Love!” said Waiter!Five with a cheerful grin. “Strawberry jam on toast, with a side of baked beans and eggs. Compliments from the Chef.” 

“You tell me if you want more, Love!” shouted Brisket!Five, beaming from the open kitchen.  

“Lila, are you real?” Drunk!Five dragged himself off the wall, stumbling toward their booth. He collapsed beside her, resting his head on her lap and promptly passing out. Lilas started petting his hair, bemused. 

Five could see a vein throb on his double’s face. Booth!Five closed his eyes before steeling himself. “You guys—why you always—You see other Lilas here?” He shot a pointed look at Five, voice hard and full of accusation. 

S4,E6: Thinking about how the scene with Five holding Lila as cried, utterly devastated in the subway after saying goodbye to her children…he runs to her, holds her and accepts her “I hate you for this” because he understands the depth of her pain and how it had to be channeled somewhere. He was the safe place for her when she was the most broken. “I know”….

She clings to him for a long time, he quietly holds her close. And then the camera just zooms out and cuts away. What happened after she finally caught her breath? How long did he hold her like that? She doesn’t run back to Diego, even though he would be enduring the same pain losing their children. No, Lila needs Five. Her interaction with Diego is perfunctory, only saying the kids are safe, not sharing her brokenness and grief with him.

Only Five knows her that deeply. Her words say I hate you but they both know that what lies under those words is raw devastation and mutual understanding that Five is strong enough to hear it and know that she NEEDS him right now and always. Lila knows he’s strong enough to take it- he always has been strong enough for her.

One hint is that when they blink back to Luther’s place they are staring at each other, not the siblings or their surroundings as one would expect. The camera cuts away and then back to them, still staring at each other. It says so much about what the camera didn’t show.

…Do you know if anyone has written a fic about the moments here, between these two scenes?

With the way time behaves in the subway, they could have been gone for a few minutes or a few years.

Beautifully written! I totally agree.

Lila needed Five, not Diego. It was Five who hugged and comforted her, who she allowed herself to be vulnerable in front of. I still don't understand how anyone can say she chose Diego after that scene. That scene is honestly the best thing the final episode gave us. You can see the depth of their bond, their vulnerability and closeness to each other. Five was her safe place for so long and once again she ended up in his arms while experiencing such a very heartbreaking moment.

And in the meantime… a lot of things could have happened!

Honestly, I actually wrote one of those fanfictions. It's the exact moment before the comeback. Well, I wrote it two days after the finale, so my emotions were a little wild. And I would have written the scene differently today. But here it is:

Still not over this ship 💔

Finale of "Love and other things" is out! 🎉

Happy *Two Months* to my dear fellow lovers of the Fivela ship🍓, thank you so much for sticking with me through my first piece!

This final chapter is dedicated to @HansoDax for prompting me with one of her favorite lines from the show—and for being such a lovely penpal ❤ Be sure to check out her incredible work!

I hope you enjoy this story all the way through to the end. 🤗