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Nahh cause like wtf red ☹
Finally learned how t draw a side profile 💕💕💕
Nahh cause like wtf red ☹
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i’m going to give a comprehensive list of songs that hit way too hard for me or that i cry to, because im little lonely (only child syndrome) and have no one else to tell 😁.
Liability by Lorde
i so vividly remember listening to this song for the first time, and it was like someone put how i felt every single fucking day into a song. i just felt like a huge burden to everyone and everything. especially since i had to whole sad clown thing going on (being the life of the party and silly until i had to be apart from anything that happily distracted me). so many nights were spent laying on the ground and staring at the ceiling, or sobbing in a dark closet to that song. thanks lorde 😍! (/s)
Stay by Post Malone
by far one of the most embarrassing songs on this list 😭. sorry unfortunately i dabble in hating mainstream artists (particularly yt men). however, an old friend of mine showed me this song as one of her fave sad songs to cry to, and i was like thanks im stealing this for my playlist 😁. once again just a song that put my thoughts into words (omg i love art), and i really just needed someone to hug me and tell me everything would be okay. also strangely, it’s a great song for if you’ve had a rocky relationship with your mom or anyone you love so deeply you’d do anything for but shit happens and you both fumble the ball, so now everyone is pissed off. like post simultaneously asking someone to (hopefully figuratively)put their cigarette out on his face, but also stick around for him and love him and tell him everything is okay? yeah real.
I’m Not A Mountain by Sarah Kinsley
fully almost cried when i saw/heard this live, because Sarah almost cried. *defeated* yeah. just another lonely girl who can’t set a boundary to save her life so she runs from her problems and has a sharp tongue song. i’ve said things that i didn’t mean out of anger and so deeply regret because i caused a friendship to end. i have people i (sort of) want a relationship with that i can’t get back because i’ve learned too much and im living in the past in some ways (rightfully so imo) (yes im contradicting myself ik). but yeah sometimes i wish i was a mountain too.
Last Time We Never Meet Again by Sarah Kinsley
sarah kinsley you will always be famous.
but fr this song was simultaneously a swift kick to the gut, but also a breath of fresh air. i was fresh off of calling it quits with a guy (like a month lol), and i had a lot of firsts with him (first serious relationship, first music festival, first time traveling without family, etc) not s*x though someone else beat him to it lmao.) so basically i was ranting to my mom and friends about him and everything i didn’t like that he did, because everything around me reminded me of him and it PISSED ME OFF to no end. then this album (Escaper) dropped (thank god), and once again this song was just everything i felt. like i can’t stand you, i never want to see you again, but hope everything works out how you want it to (im not a monster guys cmon). he called me tho like last week to make small talk and then ask me questions about his personality and stuff. so then that re-pissed me off bc i deleted his number while i was drunk on vacation, and i don’t follow him on anything anymore like pls take a hint.
Casual by Chappell Roan
self-explanatory.
Magnolia by Laufey
let me preface this by being a butthole and let everyone know how cool i am, because i was into laufey before she was uber famous. like im talking tickets to her show were $30. anyways!
basically a girl strung me along, and then left me for a mid yt man 😁. this song was there for me when i was too embarrassed to tell my friends what happened. didn’t cry, but definitely gazed out of my window on a rainy day and listened to the song on repeat for an hour or two (yes this is a part of my villain origin story) (yes i know im a terrible villain fr, more sad and lazy than vengeful)
Baby by Brittany Howard
feeling like i wasn’t enough and didn’t measure up (especially romantically)
Sullen Girl by Fiona Apple
my mom actually played an old fiona apple cd for me while we packed up our house to move. this song really stuck with me bc that whole summer (‘22) was a blur. the second half of the song genuinely sent me into shock because it gave me war flashbacks of childhood trauma that i try to repress 😍. then my mom told me, she pictured me as the sullen girl during my lowest moments and i cried and we hugged.
Cellophane by FKA Twigs
self-explanatory. especially if you’ve seen anania’s tiktoks to this song (doing mundane tasks, deadpan thousand yard stare, and this song blaring). i feel the same way girl, me too. also that music video is literally stunning.
Prey by The Neighborhood
ahhh an old classic. honestly the whole Wiped Out! album is good to cry to but this is a personal favorite. sobbed for two hours then fell asleep because why not. i felt like a waste of space that couldn’t do anything right (i still feel like that sometimes). you are so right jesse rutherford i do feel like something is wrong (i have extreme anxiety, everything feels off and i will freak out at any moment) i feel like prey (i will be chastised and ostracized the moment i do something wrong, and everyone is watching, also i was unmedicated).
okay besties this was a really short little playlist and long thoughts i randomly wanted to get out. thanks for letting me be annoying and reading 😍 (i say to my 5 followers, 2 of which are bots)
okay also, i want book recommendations! i want some kinda lesser known books, some deep cuts (b sides in the book community if you will!).
i kinda fall into that “weird girl books” category. like some of my faves include but are not limited to:
Bones and All by Camille DeAngelis
Confessions by Kanae Minato
Their Vicious Games by Joelle Wellington
The Glass Castle by Jeannette Wells
Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn (a classic)
preferably some books in the same vein as those! and if anybody recommends me stuff with wild ass taboos (inc*st, p*dos,etc) (and i’m looking at you lolita and flowers in the attic enjoyers), i will come to your house and take every single battery and piece of cutlery out that mf and im not playing 💀
hey divas, let’s cast their vicious games bc i heard it’s slated for a tv show 😁
this casting would be like my dream casting where everyone is a perfect actor/actress and a budget is nonexistent lol.
marsai martin as adina
marsai definitely has the look! like, this is who i pictured when joelle described adina physically and emotionally (her intelligence, sarcasm, general demeanor). my only concern is that since marsai doesn’t have many serious roles in her filmography, she may not be able to give the depth needed for a dramatic suspense show.
ashley liao as saint
no concerns about her acting skills or looks, it’s more so about salary since she was in a blockbuster (the ballad of songbirds and snakes).
sadie sink as penthesilea
same situation as ashley. has the look and acting chops, the salary/budget is the issue.
rachel zegler as esme (honorary mention: jenna ortega)
these divas! they both have the look, and are amazing actors. jenna’s a bit more suited for the role bc of how edgy she is, and it’d be nice to see her get rid of that wednesday addams/astrid deetz typecast. rachel is great but ive never seen her play a morally gray/pretty much villain type girl. however i’d imagine they’d be expensive.
cate blanchette as aunt remington
her salary would be like 1/4 of the budget
daniella perkins as toni
who i pictured as toni! after seeing her in grown-ish and older, i think she’d be great for comedic relief and the serious moments.
harry colett as graham
the targaryen prince! idk guys the curly hair and sunken eyes really do it for me. i definitely think he can play the drunken but kinda serious screw up.
gavin casalengo as pierce
very pretty “all american” boy is how i imagined pierce, so i think gavin is a decent choice. he was pretty good in the summer i turned pretty. also i think the gurls may enjoy him as the main love interest that could look good with adina and penthesilea.
slowly morphing into a doll with the meanest energy (towards men).