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Issue with 3d in ward (REPOST)
so my discharge date for the psych ward is the 10th, but I don't want to leave for maybe another week after that. Should I tell them about my 3d to buy more time here, but at the same time should I not? I don't want to r3cover, I only just r3lapsed last week.
I REPOSTED BECUASE I SET THE POLL FOR A WEEK AND IM LEAVING THEN LOOLOLOL
scariest thing about 4na is the dreams where you 3at.
I LOST 5KG BY NOT 3ATING FOR 4 DAYS LETS GOOOO GOD BLESS 4NA!!!
welcome to my edblr blog!
little facts about me:
my name is mischa, i’m seventeen, i’m 🇷🇺 x 🇮🇹 but I live in the us!
stats :
HW: 115lbs / 52kg
SW: 105lbs / 47kg
CW: 95lbs / 43kg, 93lbs / 42kg as of July 7th!!
GW: 92lbs / 41kg
UGW: 90lbs / 40kg
height: 5’5” / 165cm
disclaimers
i am pro only for myself, i don’t encourage this disorder and i honestly wish i didn’t have to go through this but i’m not ready to get help, if you’re thinking about recovering i fully support and encourage that. this blog is mainly to comfort people with similar struggles as me and to hold myself accountable.
please, please block & don’t report. i know it’s alarming to see these kinds of blogs especially if you aren’t suffering from an ed, but my ed won’t disappear because my edblr acc did, this is a safe space for me so please respect that.
I walked out of my room w a crop top on and my mom said “how small is your waist now?? 20 inches??” 😭😭 this is all worth it, literal motivation to keep going
Guess who got their grubby hands on some more Cherry Coke Zero? I honestly treat diet sodas like anti-depressants.
Genuinely kind of tweaking because I'm taking a nutrition course this semester. I have no excuse not to lock in on this disorder.
it’s another type of competition when you suspect your sibling also has an eating disorder
movies about eating disorders are like baby sensory videos for me
I've never seriously considered doing drugs BUT sometimes I find myself thinking about how quickly I would get to my ugw if I just...
shout out pickles, for being the safe food that keeps me from killing myself
Got an assignment for my nutrition class to track what I eat for 3 days…this is a dream and a nightmare for me
saw an impossibly thin girl who was also tall, had longer hair, and prettier curls than I did
about to starting gnawing at my desk out of jealousy
anytime I put together an outfit all I can think about is how much better it would look if I were skinny
got asked, "did you lose some weight?"
this will keep me from killing myself for the next few days
yes, but also...those are the lyrics to a Pharrell song for a Despicable Me movie
who will you be tonight?
thats the question.
doctor’s appointments are horrific enough to be appetite suppressants
Y'all be honest...why have my posts been flopping (my dash has also been slowish)? Help! What do I do?
Why was 14 year old me so much better at this eating disorder?
somebody institutionalize me (but don't actually, please)!