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I might be an attention whore but it’s not cos I’m a Leo rising ♌️ 👀
I’m sorry but
50kg is the definition of skinny-fat
I am 50kg
I am skinny fat 👀💀
Self care= guilt
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My desires= guilt
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My purpose= guilt
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My existence= guilt
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I’m still stuck at my cw
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But at least I can get all my trousers on without undoing the buttons & zips 💅👏🏼✨
Sorry for being inactive…
I haven’t been feeling skinny enough
I need to lose 10 kg/22 lbs in 3 months
Now is my time to shine ✨ 💅
Lmao should I just start purging again?
Just joking!!!
Unless… 👀🤭
I look so lovely and skinny for my sisters wedding 💒 💅
UPDATE;
My sister got married and moved out to her in laws. I feel like I’ve lost her. Like she doesn’t care about me anymore. We barely see her and when we do I don’t feel close to her. It’s like there’s this boundary where someone else is getting her best. Her focus isn’t on me. It never was until I started to purge and restrict. Now I’m good again I’m invisible.
It makes me want to starve myself and I want her to notice.
New motivation unlocked I guess ❤️🩹
Update;
My sister said she doesn’t appreciate that I pressure her into coming back home to stay with us when all I’ve ever did was ask ❤️🩹
I wonder if she’ll care if I lose more again…
Turning a new page today!
Coming off of my antidepressant.
Working out again.
Tea instead of snacks.
Limit cal intake.
Dialectics.
Connecting to my femininity.
Embracing my current thoughts and feelings.
Riding the wave of tomorrow 🌊
I just got religious healing done today and now my mum expects me to change everything about me. Lovely.
It’s funny how I’m expected to heal yet forget myself at the same time.
Seems I’ve relapsed at a good time.
Skinniness is next to cleanliness
And cleanliness is next to godliness
Really thought I’d be pretty if I lost the weight.
But if I’m gonna be ugly I’d rather be skinny and ugly.
No one talks about the mental clarity you get when you don’t eat 🤤
It’s a craving like a drug.
My sister said I look like an ironing board
That my legs are toothpicks
That I need to eat something (ugh as if)
Thanx tho sis 😘🤪
Working out
and
Food network
10/10