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8 months ago

Self care= guilt

My desires= guilt

My purpose= guilt

My existence= guilt


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8 months ago

I’m still stuck at my cw

But at least I can get all my trousers on without undoing the buttons & zips 💅👏🏼✨


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3 months ago

UPDATE;

My sister got married and moved out to her in laws. I feel like I’ve lost her. Like she doesn’t care about me anymore. We barely see her and when we do I don’t feel close to her. It’s like there’s this boundary where someone else is getting her best. Her focus isn’t on me. It never was until I started to purge and restrict. Now I’m good again I’m invisible.

It makes me want to starve myself and I want her to notice.

New motivation unlocked I guess ❤️‍🩹


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3 months ago

Update;

My sister said she doesn’t appreciate that I pressure her into coming back home to stay with us when all I’ve ever did was ask ❤️‍🩹

I wonder if she’ll care if I lose more again…


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3 months ago

Turning a new page today!

Coming off of my antidepressant.

Working out again.

Tea instead of snacks.

Limit cal intake.

Dialectics.

Connecting to my femininity.

Embracing my current thoughts and feelings.

Riding the wave of tomorrow 🌊


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3 months ago

I just got religious healing done today and now my mum expects me to change everything about me. Lovely.


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3 months ago

It’s funny how I’m expected to heal yet forget myself at the same time.


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2 months ago

Skinniness is next to cleanliness

And cleanliness is next to godliness


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2 months ago

Really thought I’d be pretty if I lost the weight.

But if I’m gonna be ugly I’d rather be skinny and ugly.


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2 months ago

No one talks about the mental clarity you get when you don’t eat 🤤

It’s a craving like a drug.


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2 months ago

My sister said I look like an ironing board

That my legs are toothpicks

That I need to eat something (ugh as if)

Thanx tho sis 😘🤪


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