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Moths are one of my fav inscects, the only other being bees, but like, once there was a moth the size of a sparrow sleeping on the screen door of the back enterance, and i was supposed to take the garbage out but I didn’t because I was absolutely terrified of it.
Hats
Throughout the healing process it hasn’t been the assaults, sexual coercion, and the emotional torture that has been difficult to understand.
No, no. It’s been resolving that reality to the person who was, on rare occasions, undeniably kind to me and charming to others. The one who was loved by the family dog. The one who helped out his grandma and had a really sweet relationship with her.
It’s so much easier to think of them as monsters, and I’d argue that it is probably a necessity in the early stages of the recovery process.
But they're human. And somehow that’s a difficult pill to swallow.
“Doublethink means the power of holding two contradictory beliefs in one's mind simultaneously, and accepting both of them.”
—George Orwell
My Mind
Jagged and yearning.
Frozen but burning.
The pages are turning.
This isn’t hurting.
Vivid emotions,
Such as love and devotion.
I fear to feel them.
This is my mind.
Sometimes blanking.
Sometimes imagining.
Consistent aching.
This is my mind.
Darkness without light.
A world upside down,
Where wrong is right.
An endless fight.
This is my mind.
My mind is this;
A swing and a miss.
A loveless kiss.
A feline hiss.
Hot spring mist.
An agitated, shaking fist.
This and that,
Is My Mind.
- (d.n.k)
Currently in the "stay-away-from-me, but-don't-leave-me" state of mind.
~me.being.myself~
I visited what I thought was the sun
(but there was ice inside)
and everything there was in boxes
with prices I could afford
but I was not allowed to see the boxes,
and so I could not buy them
and I flew back home instead.
Being Me is understanding that...
No one can roast me like I roast myself.
No one's harder on me than myself.
No one criticises me as I do myself.
No one's crueller to me than myself.
No one can speak harsher to me than myself.
I am my own enemy and my own saviour.
I am the first one to scoff on my mistakes and the first one to apologise to myself.
I hurt myself and I heal myself.
It's a paradoxical torment living my life. It's a self awakening pleasure living my life.
I got my Leo sun in the 11th house, while my Aquarius uranus is also in the 5th. I’m kind of a mix of all this energies at the same time haha
An example of synthesis, using a scenario that is considered “contradicting” (Leo sun in the 11th house :: the singular identity in the home of the group collective)
the sign is how, the house is where:
leo sun ( [+] keywords on how they express their identity): vivid/vibrant, loyal, creative, passionate, loving, dedicated, determined/persistent, brave, dignified
11th house (where they express their identity): the development of the ego (sun) will revolve around the areas of dreams and aspirations of the future, the approach to society and social causes, themes of innovation and progression, friendships that are formed, and connectivity to the collective
In a reading I would bring this together and say something like;
“The visions of future dreams and aspirations are passionate and vivid in the eyes of the solar individual. He prides himself in being persistent and tenacious in pursuit of his purposes, shows a loving and loyal temperament towards those he has bonded with in the name of unity, and in his contact to the multitudes he draws others near with the vibrant, creative and magnetizing warmth of his light.”
As you can see, all we did was combine two concepts using a bunch of keywords. Try doing this with placements in your chart that you find “contradicting”
the sign is how, the house is where, and aspects further flavor planetary energies.
I didn't go to class today cause of burn out. Cause of this stuff. Bruh, I wanna do hw but I'm so tired mentally.
"contract grading" "only 4 absences or you drop to an F" "in this class we will be teaching about disabilities. attendance is mandatory and i do not accept late work" "please respond to at least two of your peers in this discussion post" "people with autism need time to decompress in a classroom environment. your class is four hours long with a 7 minute break." "we like to let students learn the way THEY want to learn. please buy our 150 dollar textbook."
