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Hey, Cass. I have a quick question for you. How long have you been fucking Nate Jacobs?
EUPHORIA 2x05 — Stand Still Like the Hummingbird
i thought this looked familiar :)
*no hate to both of these talented actresses*
a boy brushed red living in black and white
pairing: elliot x fem!reader
warnings: swearing and mentions of drugs.
a/n: i believe this series will have seven parts so stay tuned! get added to my taglist here babes. i hope you enjoy! <3
words: 1.7k + not proofread
part two | part three | part four | part five | part six |part seven
can you feel your heartbeat racing? can you taste the fear in her sweat? you've done this wrong, it's too far gone, these sheets tell of regret. i admit that i'm just a fool for you, i am just a fool for you.
you pressed play onto your baby blue speaker before plopping onto your bed in a huff. school was the same old same old, the work was just getting harder. once you were done doing the last page of your calculus though? you quickly did your night routine so you could listen to music.
“i would do it, press a button, pull the trigger, pull a mountain, jump off a cliff cause you know baby i love you, love you a little bit…” you softly sang to yourself while dancing, a small mirror clutched in your hand as you examined your nose.
whatever song you had stuck in your head before you closed your window each night he heard.
he knew their YouTube homepages were different. hers filled with glowy makeup tutorials, new Fenty skincare, watching people getting eyelash extensions and their nails done, hair videos, pamper routines, and kittens.
his was filled with gaming, beats, few reaction videos, short horror films, and an insane amount of music videos.
he thought he was imagining things the first time he heard her attempt to hit Kellin Quinn’s notes on King for a Day. she had giggled at her voice cracking before deciding to just hum to herself.
that did it.
that was what caused Elliot’s infatuation to grow even more.
he woke up earlier than usual one Thursday. through the blinding sun rays, he could see her trying to blend out the concealer under her eyes with her French manicured fingers before hurriedly grabbing at a beauty blender.
switching to sit up in his bed, he rubbed at his eyes. the movement caught the corner of her eye before she looked up and waved at him with a small smile.
the breath was caught in his lungs as he realized it was for him. with a short wave back from him, she turned back to setting her face.
that one interaction made his morning better.
there was a stupid smile on his face all day long.
“the fuck got you so happy?” Rue asked him in chemistry. she was hogging his notes and quickly copied them while Elliot daydreamed about his morning.
Jules laughed at her girlfriends nosiness before rolling her eyes at the obvious.
“lover boy probably saw his lover girl.” she giggled at his face change. she knew she was right then.
Rue noticed and laughed too. she closed his notebook before shoving his sweater clad shoulder.
not to long after you had moved in they both had noticed him always sitting at his window. he went from simply smoking out of it to staring intently out of it no matter what he was doing.
it was interesting to say the least.
one day Jules and Rue had enough of wondering what Elliot was staring at while they were trying to smoke the blunt he had tightly gripped between his fingers.
Rue marched towards him and quickly looked in the direction he was. “let me see what you’re staring- oh my damn.” Rue said with her mouth wide open from her place by Elliot’s shoulder. Elliot’s neighbor was doing yoga in front of her window. lights low, sunlight coming in making her skin glow, and candles burning as she stretched.
she was beautiful. hair out of her face, glowing skin, alluring eyes, and wearing a cute two piece athletic set while a YouTube playlist softly played from her tv.
“i wanna s…” Jules trailed off as she assessed the scene. you were absolutely breath taking to her. “i wanna be that mat.”
“i’d be at this window everyday too champ.” Rue said patting at Elliot’s shoulder before laughing and taking the blunt from his hand, still eyeing you through the smoke.
she couldn’t believe Elliot had lucked out like this.
“damn…did she drop her towel in front of you?” she teased at him, his head quickly shaking as he was snapped out of his day dream once again. the girls bursted into a fit of giggles right before the bell rang, Elliot quickly getting out of his seat and hurriedly leaving after gathering his things.
“awwwww! Ellie come back!” the girls hollered behind him causing unnecessary attention. he could see Nate glance at him from the corner of his eye as he rushed away from the girls, side stepping BB on his way.
at that time he passed you in the hallway. platform sandals, shiny legs, perfect makeup, matching French tips on your toe nails and finger nails that were digging into the bottom of your locker.
it didn’t help you were wearing some reworked Ed Hardy piece you had turned into a dress with a heart shaped sucker clutched between your lips he just knew you got from the library.
you bent up with your blue and pink juicy bag now in your grasp and caught his eye. your tired eyes meeting his enticing ones.
“hi Elliot!” you beamed at him over the sucker in your mouth. he stumbled over his shoes at your action and your eyes holding 16 mm lashes widened.
reaching a perfectly manicured hand out you gripped his arm to steady him.
“h-hey.” he whispered at your close proximity.
“hi.” you giggled up at him. he could smell the strawberry and mint on your breath and the sweet perfume or lotion you used this morning.
you two shyly smiled at each other before another call of his name, just louder this time, interrupted you two.
“Ellie!” Jules squealed before yanking at the strings in his backpack causing him to sway.
you laughed at the girl before letting your hand release Elliot’s arm. he felt the warmth leave his body immediately.
“hi Jules, Rue.” you said with a small smile, looking up at the two taller girls.
Rue shyly nodded as acknowledgment while Jules let out an excited “Hi! i love those shoes!”
you told her where you got them before turning your attention back to Elliot. a teasing looking on your perfectly done face.
“bye…Ellie.” you smirked before walking away to class. Elliot’s eyes never leaving your switching hips and legs.
“fuck.” he mumbled under his breath and discreetly covering the growing tent in his pants.
“she is hot.” Rue shrugged from beside him.
“agreed.” said Jules.
“is weed like…is it really that good?” he didn’t expect those words to leave your lips or for you to be interested. he didn’t really expect to hear you at all as his low red eyes drawled over to you.
his slow beating heart seemingly sped up at your voice.
a freshly washed face with curious eyes were staring right through him as you climbed to sit on the edge of your window just like him. your moisturized lips were bit in thought and as if you two were in a room together, you had leaned in to give him undivided attention.
the action caused your chest to be more apparent, to him he just thought it was a coincidence, but you knew you had done it on purpose.
had you leant any further he would’ve jumped down to save you, no hesitations.
“you smell that shit?” he laughed staring back at you.
you nodded, your own smile hidden by your bitten bottom lip.
“yeah i do.” you giggled. “i told my mom there’s probably baby skunks around here.” you said causing you two to erupt in laughter.
once you both calmed down Elliot took another hit and could faintly hear a woman’s voice calling your name.
you swung your head around to your closed door before looking back out at him. with a sheepish look on your face you gave a small grimace.
“we should smoke some time?” you said loud enough for him to hear you before tugging your sock clad feet back into your room with the rest of your body.
he watched you peek your head out, bending down with a small wave you smiled before closing your curtains and locking your window. your frame completely gone from his view.
as he laid in bed he couldn’t help but think of a few things.
how good you looked without trying, how when you waved goodbye he could clearly tell you were wearing no bra in your satin night gown, and more importantly, how you wanted to smoke with him.
now his dick was hard.
you in his room? with that nightgown and those pretty eyes? alone with him…just him.
sliding his hand down his bare chest, his hand hovered above the waist band of his pajama pants. sighing as his hand connected with the bulge beneath the fabric.
“shit.” he said rubbing his hand over the sensitive skin. bucking his hips up, he pulled his sweats and underwear above his knees and his shirt under his chin.
“feels so fucking good.” he slurred his words as he started pumping himself to the thought of you.
he found himself in this position more than usual lately.
“fuck baby.” he mumbled taking in deep breaths and speeding up his pace. he just wanted to feel the real thing.
it wasn’t long before he busted in his hand with a low groan, quickly cleaning himself up and readjusting afterwards.
“oooo…had about enough…he’s mine, he’s mine he’s mineee.” he could faintly hear The Boy Is Mine playing from your speaker before his eyes fell heavy.
“yeah i’m yours.” he breathlessly chuckled before closing his eyes.
your singing lulling him to another realm.
“the boy is mine.” you mumbled the final line biting at your nail and trailing your eyes to your closed curtains.
“GO TO BED Y/N!” your mom hollered from downstairs.
“I AM!” you hollered back before flicking your lamp off and placing your head on your pillow.
you wondered if Elliot would like your matching set tomorrow or would he like you in that bodycon dress you got with Maddy and Kat last weekend.
you just wondered what did he like.
you knew he liked drugs. you definitely knew he liked music considering he was always singing or blasting 90’s and early 2000’s alternative music.
but what else?
did he at least like you like you’d liked him for these last couple of months?
“goodnight Ellie.” you softly mumbled into the darkness before going to bed.
you’d soon have to find out.
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I’ve literally read every Elliot fanfic on this platform and I’m desperate for more, reading all these really made me down bad for this man
having to scroll past every euphoria spoiler I glance at on every platform because I’m not caught up and the new episode came out
okay I’m finally catching back up on Euphoria season two and WKCNDKAKXKDJFJNS OH MY GOD SO MUCH IS HAPPENING BUT LOOK AT WHAT I FOUND TODAY
THIS MAN HAS ME SO DOWN BAD ITS UNBELIEVABLE
I just saw a tiktok of someone seeing Dominic Fike live and AIJDKDKDK
I’ve literally never wanted to see someone preform live this bad EVER, I’ve only been to one concert my whole life but I’d sell MY SOUL TO SEE THIS MAN PREFORM LIVE
honestly I’d consider him my favorite artist at the moment, maybe even of all time
I forgot my earbuds so now I can’t listen to Dominic Fike and ignore everyone and everything while at school, very sad
heheh i figured it out + so much more and already started the 'how things are in that world part 1 :' chapter 🤫🤫🤫
+ i loveeeee crossovers and modern aus so i'm gonna be reaalllll extra with it !
i'm talking : groupchat names + who's in them , social media accounts , everybody's relationships with everybody, etc. - ooooh prepare to be so tired of me !! 🤭🤭
HELPPP for my euphoria x stranger things au should i make steve graduated and a year older than the older hawkins teens like canon or seniors with them 😪😪😪
AND if he's graduated, should i have it as he's still working at family video or in college with mckay and just working part-time with robin🤫
Euphoria Season 1 came out when in class eleventh, the weird space and actually feeling like a teenager doing dumb shit and I actually relate to Rue a lot, I felt like Rue but without drugs (I haven't even touched alcohol outside chemistry lab). But putting that aside I knew we all wanted to be Maddy. I actually even had a great friend like Maddy.
Fast forward to season two, I hated Cassie in it, I could understand her but... And now while waiting for season 3 (yes I am) and on re-watch and reconnecting with my past I realised that I kind of did exactly what I hated Cassie for. I did that before even season 2 released.
So in my 12th class I dated a guy for the first time in my life. I knew what kind of a boy he was. My best friend had a crush on him since ninth... everyone said they would and should be a great couple and he teased things with her for three years while they both had different partners but none serious.
But I probably wasn't in the best place and pandemic was going on so I just agreed to be with him in a relationship because we were those academic rivals who never talked. I was very much invisible for him since we first met but I had this embarrassing Wattpad phase (a nerd being asked out by a popular hot boy?!)
I knew my best friend liked him, she even had this fantasies about their future together since they had same stream, same class. Those got talked in front of me since just like Cassie and Nate our arrangement was secret.
All the stuff I did for his validation from starving myself to not sleeping whole nights... Only to get ignored in hallways and pretend as if we had nothing going on. Its hilarious now.
And yes, at a point my friendship was on verge of falling apart. My others best friend got to know but not her. That was such a trauma for me that I actually cried a whole night and pretty much was just existing for a week before I got ghosted and dumped for not having a guy as my first priority.
Me and friends are now 21 and she still don't know such thing happened until now and I had also pretty much forgetted it all but I just listened to WILDFLOWER by Billie Eilish and I— I called her and cried.
Yes I am crying for myself and Cassie and Billie too if she wrote this song for dating her friend's ex.
I mean imagine dating a guy so horrible that— that you turn to whole other sex for love. That your sexuality change? Or you realise?
And he was a homophobic and player and a red flag I refused to see as every other teenager.
Cassie is a teenager and I think I hated her because her storyline was very much similar to mine and it was being potrayed and I was afraid someone will find out. I think she doesn't deserve the hate when all her life she was the one being objectified for none of her fault. If people refused to see beyond that and yes that carousel scene in the play was unnecessary.
And also no guy can be better than your friend, seriously. I don't where that guy is now but I am still in touch with my friends. She even told me that it doesn't matter now because I am her friend and she knew—
if cassie wasn’t such a fucking LOSER she would have realised that the person that could have given her all the love and attention and respect in the world was already there and it was MADDY FUCKING PEREZ
1k followers celebration ♎️ → a character that shares my star sign CASSIE HOWARD
this literally just happened to me oml. i hate buying more.
"oh my god do i look like i'm in oklahoma?"
OMG SO IDK HOW TO DRAW BODIES BUT I THINK IT LOOKS FINE. THE LEGS WERE LIKE UNEVEN SO I EDITED IT SO THEYRE EVEN I GUESS BC MY FRIEND WAS SLANDER ME FOR IT 😭 anyway i like the way her face turned out i think it's cute tbh. it was like a pretty quick sketch but i really like how it turned out. i always thought i was be more of a digital art person but drawing on paper is sm easier tbh 💀 might color it if i get bored idk. ALSO I DIDNT WANNA DRAW HER FEET SO IGNORE THE BOTTOM LMAOOO
what ur originally looked like 😭
no bc my friend could be trying to talk to me across the room and i'd have no clue what she's saying. i just gotta smile and nod.
so i've been rewatching euphoria as well and like i'm really noticing a lot of things i didn't notice before. but i'm very disappointed in cassie but honestly everyone treated her like shit in the first season and i'm not trying to make an excuse for her but like it's really sad because she just wants to be loved. you know??
*BESIDES THAT I DO THINK THAT SHE WAS WRONG BUT I CAN'T HATE HER*
im rewatchinf euphoria rn and i just want to ask.. was it wrong for cassie to do what she did?? to maddy and just in general?? who’s a cassie apologist?? in this house??
Anyone but you gives 90s romcom 💝