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I’m boooooooooored || based on this by whatinbenaddiction

Destiel Parallel: Booth/Brennan.

The next person to tell me that I read too much into the Dean/Cas scene is going to get a Season 8 box set thrown at their boobs.

Chuck has the fucking audacity to show up to the wedding and is like “yo I’m the father of the groom uwu” and the entire wedding party looks up from beating the piss out of John Winchester and they’re like “sweet, round two bitches” and then they hunt him for sport with Becky Rosen leading the charge

Is it me or does it look like he’s getting a BJ(from Dean, obvi)

I could look at this for hours

So I was rewatching supernatural and earlier on the bus I was listening to Hamilton again

Then I had this thought. Imagine Dean as Hamilton and Cas as Laurens. Because "I think you trench coat looks hot Cas, I like you a lot"

Just sayin

These lyrics right here. This whole song is Destiel coded.

Trees ll- McCafferty

Thinking about how, when Cas was working with Crowley, only Dean believed in him. And he was so sure that Cas was innocent, and his only reasoning was, "It's Cas, man." He believed him with every fiber in his being, even when all the evidence was stacked against him. He didn't believe it until Cas admitted it to his face. He believed in Cas' innocence over Bobby and Sam, his surrogate father and brother, you know, the one person he loves most in the world. He wanted Cas to be innocent. He didn't want to have to face the prospect that the man he believed to be an angel, both literally and figuratively, wasn't 100% on their side. He wanted to believe that Cas had changed, and he did, but not all the way. One moment in particular sticks out to me, and it's when Dean confronts Cas, even before all this, and says, "What happened to you, Cas? You used to be human, or at least like one." And I think it's such a stab to the heart. He wanted Cas to be human, to feel things, and experience things that he hadn't before. He just wanted to believe in him.

Dean's favorite thing to do is prepare movie nights for him and Cas, but after he shows him all the classics, he starts choosing ones with angels in them for the sole purpose of having Cas rant about how inaccurate it is to him.

All I gotta ask is, what do you mean "we are," Cas?!?!?! We?! Like the collective, royal we, or the 'me and you together forever' we? You can't just say that and then not fucking follow it up. Especially after Dean says, "nothing about our lives is real." And then Cas fr goes. "You asked what was real. We are?" What does it mean?????

a big, soft, comfortable, comforting, private hug where they have time to get comfy and close their eyes and start to feel self-conscious but hold on tighter until it passes and feel each other's warmth and safety and they're just Home

adksksknft! But ngl I expected more porn?

I do tend to say it with porn, no? ;) These two have a history of gorgeous, meaningful hugs when it matters though. That and the profound-bond eyesex they seem relentlessly unaware of doing from the moment they meet.

As a fanwriter, I'm at a loss with "Destiel", I have to admit - the sheer weight of their backstory is intimidating. I'd love to use my smut toolkit to wrestle my way to understanding Dean and Cas as characters, as a romantic/sexual pairing, hell, as a phenomenon of modern fandom culture, but I doubt there's much left to add to all the Cas/Dean smut that's been written over the past 15 years. I'm way late to the Supernatural party. I'm so late they're talking "revival"! The stats on AO3 are mind-boggling for this pairing alone.

The hug post got me thinking about their finale smut potential and motivations, though!

Would their post-finale reunion go the smut route right away? Depends how smutty/romantic one's interpretation of their backstory is, I think. If I load a headcanon where they've already been lovers in the past, or wished they were but put it on hold, then yep, they'd be straight in there with the cinematic kiss the second they get enough eye-contact to reassure them that everything's okay between them. Don't come knockin' when Heaven's a-rockin'.

I sort of love that if I take the show at face value they're messier than that, though - that the show didn't give them a real-life-isn't-like-that cosy wrapup, just this lifechanging bond played out over 12 long seasons that even they struggle to categorise and rationalise, and probably couldn't explain on paper if their lives depended on it. They've both worked so hard to find their common ground, to accommodate each other's unique ways of being difficult, broken, and beautiful - but they're both pretty obtuse about the implications. I reckon they at least need a good run-up, and some actual, on-topic conversations in a no-stress environment before tearing each other's heavenly garments asunder, post-finale.

Cas loves Dean, and said so with (what he genuinely thought were) his final words, passionate and uncompromising and pure of intent, but what does monogamous love of a human mean to a fallen angel who's shown little sign of carnality or domesticity in his quest to adapt to humanity's ways and get comfortable with human emotions? He wanted something more than the closeness they had already by season 14/15, so bad you could spot him yearning at 300ft, but what? What exactly would his wish-fulfilment look like? Does he even know himself? What's Cas' #destiel headcanon? I'm open to it being happy and fulfilling human life-parter type sex, naturally, but also to it being... something other? Something so alien to humanity that he's sure Dean can't follow him there?

Dean loves Cas, less and less obliquely as the series progresses, but it's not a love he knows how to deal with. He goes with "brother" because that's the tidiest mental compartment he can find for the intensity of this bond, I think, and because blood family is always his frame of reference for everything that matters most to him. He grows more comfortable with it as Cas becomes easier to talk with, more emotionally articulate and outwardly human, but he also seems increasingly mystified by how to respond to it - something too big to ever get dealt with while they're so busy putting out apocalyptic fires and, you know, dying all the time.

I reckon Dean took Cas' love confession at face value, that it devastated and humbled him, that he wasn't anywhere near ready to hear it said aloud; that hearing it as 'goodbye, I'm dying for you' was one of the cruelest personal blows he's ever taken; that he understood Cas didn't need him to do or say anything in return at that moment, but must regret that he didn't speak his mind sooner; that everything else Cas said to him in those few minutes caused such a profound shift in his understanding of himself that he's got a lot of quiet thinking to do before he's back on an even keel and ready to act decisively about his relationship with anyone else. Dean's typically slow at processing things he can't wrap his head around instantly, things that leave him feeling exposed, and... well... he didn't get much time after that.

I keep warily eyeing that weirdly amorphous and dreamlike Heaven they ended up in, too, with its optional passage of time and sense of... emptiness. Especially having seen how antsy Dean looked about the deal in The Winchesters. Can he even play by Jack's hands-off rules up there?

I'd hate for a belatedly vicious plot punchline to sneak up on the happy couple while they were blissed out and off guard from making the nekky love in a heavenly sunny meadow full of bees or whatever, screwing their way towards happily-ever-after, but that's the way my brain seems to be leaning on the finale's picture of Heaven. My guard is up, my suspicion's aroused, so anything I write to consummate their relationship, set post-finale, would get tangled up in that less attractive puzzle.

I felt the fandom's howling wilderness of pain in 2020 and I don't want to make it WORSE by pitching in now with unnecessarily angsty smutfeels, y'know? I'm all about the character-building angst and hope never to change, but even I think these two deserve an uncomplicated, happy sex life - if for no other reason than cosmic compensation for all they've sacrificed and all the times they got hit, stabbed, or dead - by this point in the story.

Please please write Destiel fic Nym!

I'd love to. I definitely approached my Supernatural marathon with the possibility in the back of my mind. That many fans in love with a pairing can't be wrong, right? "Destiel" doesn't so much have a fandom as an army. I wanted to know what it was all about, and wow, did I ever find out! Their first ep/scene hits Supernatural like an antagonistic chemistry bomb going off, and it gets exponentially messier and angstier and more problematic and more emotive from there. My kinda pairing.

My functional capacity for writing is so low these days, and the recovery time so long after I try, I don't know if I can or ever will, short of learning to love completely surface-level little PWPs as much as I love million-word, angsty introspection and slow-build, but I'd love to write about these two. I think I could spend a lifetime exploring the Endverse alone.

"A part of him that's bigger than he likes just wants to beg, if he's got to. And that's not him. He doesn't do shit like that—except he has, for Cas, and would be willing to again right now. Just hit his knees and say that yes, it is stressful, and yes, they do struggle with it, and maybe it would be easier to just stop subjecting themselves to the same push-and-pull of complications they cradle between them, but he doesn't care. He doesn't care if they stay the exact fucking same, so long as they don't leave each other alone. He doesn't know how to leave Cas alone. "

Aching in the Absence of You by sobsicles on AO3 Explicit | Supernatural | Castiel/Dean Winchester | 95,000 words

I haven't even finished reading this fanfiction yet, not even halfway, and I'm heartily reccing it. I'd rec it just for that quoted passage alone. Talk about nailing it. It's one hell of a character study of Dean and his layered inner workings. And of the kind of monumental, anguished stupidity that two people can achieve by not having a conversation.

this is literally what happened

valentines is cancelled from now on its deancas anniversary only❤️

Sam Winchester

Run fast for

your mother

and fast for your father

Run for your children

for your sisters

And brothers

Leave all your love and your loving behind you

Can't carry it with you if you want to survive