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6 months ago

Solar eclipse

I’m not in America, I don’t get to see it live like many will. BUT YOULL BE DEAD BEFORE YOU CAN BELIEVE THAT IM NOT WATCHING THAT GOD DAMN LIVE STREAM.

I have been sitting here for the last 20 minutes and I regret NOTHING. I will probably not get to experience this ever again, but hell, is it beautiful still.

I am already a sucker for space and shit, always have been, but this… this is something else. I don’t know how to describe it. It feels like something that I was never meant to see, but had the opportunity to do so anyway..

also: DONT LOOK INTO THE SUN <3


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2 years ago

Flowey’s descent into madness needs more attention

I really feel like the period of Flowey’s transition, the one that came after his first suicide but before the events of the game, has not had the attention of the fandom as it much as it deserved.

There is so much potential here, Flowey trying to make friend with everyone after learning of his power but slowly realising that everything eventually becomes predictable, that its always the same, until eventually those same words that he hears every single time lose all meaning to him. They are just “lines of dialogue”.

He stops caring about hurting people’s feelings since they’ll just forget anyways. Being friends with people is always the same, but seeing them sad, seeing them hurt, brought to the edge of what their emotions can handle, isn’t it so much more interesting ? So much more entertaining ?

It doesn’t matter since he doesn’t about care about them and can simply just undo it if he so desires, so he might as well just try to see what happens if he insults them, if he destroys relationships, if he can get people to turn bad, or eventually, if he kills them. At first just because he’s mordbidly curious, but eventually because its the only thing that he has left in his life as the human souls are out of reach, the determination to keep living and see everything this world has to offer. “Kill or be killed” becomes his motto. Its both the lesson that he believes he ‘learned’ from his first death as Asriel and the only thing that still entertains him at this point as Flowey.

But even then, eventually, it becomes tiring. Even seeing people beg for their lives becomes boring, he’s seen it all before. He starts trying more and more complex ideas and schemes to try and get new reactions out of people instead of the same boring ones, but eventually he understands that after so many times, he literally knows everyone’s personalities by heart to the point where he can guess what they’ll do before they even do it as they more or less do the same things every time and he’s experienced that thousands of times already. 

At this point, its like if everyone else in the underground was just a robot. Like they were all scripted. If Flowey does this, then they will do that and say this. Every time, without fault. They don’t even feel like living beings anymore. They are just like toys, toys that get boring, and eventually, that he gets sick of playing with. Every single one of them.

He had seen it all, there was nothing new left for him in this world.

He ends up as a sort of deity trapped in his own world and unable to escape. There are only a handful of things he still wishes to do, but those things happen to be the ones he can never do, no matter how many times he RESETS, such as getting the human souls or seeing Chara again. Eventually, he tries the only thing he had never tried : doing literally nothing at all (except talking to Papyrus a little bit, i guess). He just waits… Until eventually Frisk falls.

Overall, i just wish there was more fan content about Flowey’s descent into insanity. There are a few good comics and fanfictions about it but i’ve ran out of them a long time ago. I love Flowey, i wish this part of the character was explored a bit more by the fans.


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5 months ago

Understandable, a lot of people dislike him for multiple different reasons. Some that I don't even understand or can comprehend but everyone has their own thing. Or they just hate him just to hate him, I'll never know. Me tho, I love diluc but I do try to see if from different views. But it's quite hard when you have other people (not you or op) mis characterizing him.

She Deserves To Say This To Diluc At Some Point And Diluc Deserves To Have This Said To Him At Some Point

She deserves to say this to Diluc at some point and Diluc deserves to have this said to him at some point I said what I said


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1 year ago

Any other hosts feel this… immense need for control that makes it so you never leave the front? No matter how badly you know it’ll be ok and you know your headmates are trustworthy and absolutely capable.

Because I often have a very hard time letting go of front and allowing myself to let others take control. The last time I talked about doing that, I was screamed at not to by a (now realized to be emotionally abusive/manipulative) ex-friend. But I know it’ll be ok. But I can’t seem to let my headmates take control without me at least partially present/in co because there is just this overwhelming anxiety that something will happen the moment I let my guard down.

The second I allow my guard to slip, shit will hit the fan. That’s how I feel 24/7. My headmates keep telling me it’s ok and that they understand. They all say they understand and that they will be there to help quell that anxiety as best they can because they know I’m so tired of being in the front constantly.

But that fear is still so fucking present.

Do any other hosts (or alters who aren’t designated as hosts but stay in front a lot) feel this? And does that anxiety ever go away?

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6 months ago

If this stupid fucking head keeps bullying me I will take it to midgard and feed it to Fenrir.


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4 months ago

heads up! pregnant!reader (still referred to with they/them pronouns in the only instance pronouns are used for reader). some sexual implications, but it goes nowhere. husband!cheol <3

the moment you see seungcheol step back into the bedroom, his shoulders slump as exhaustion hits him like a train. things have been... rough to say the least ever since your son (almost three) learned he's getting a little sister. the terrible twos are a thing, sure, but you'd hoped that maybe he'd get used to the idea a bit more over time... instead he's been trying to figure out how to get rid of her (naming people she could go live with, mainly) before she's even here.

seungcheol flops onto the bed, and then moves in closer so that he could rest his head in your lap. "i think he's scared we won't love him as much." he lets out a long sigh. "we'll keep talking to him about it."

"mmhm." you reach down, running a hand through his hair. "he'll come around. he's just stubborn like his dad."

seungcheol gives you a slightly annoyed look--not because you said it, but because it's true--and turns over to press a kiss against your bump. "they're being mean to me again," he says with a pout. "haven't i dealt with enough today?"

you roll your eyes a little. "i think once she's here and he realizes that he's still going to get equally spoiled by his uncles, he'll calm down."

"mhm." seungcheol is only half-listening now. he's too fixated on your bump, tracing his fingers over your shirt, too caught up in his own thoughts. he did the same when you were expecting your son: always gazing at you with this soft look in his eyes, all too tender. he'd been a bit more of a mess of nerves the first time around, but equally as loving.

"cheollie?"

"i love you," he says, and you aren't sure who he's saying it to now. "both of you," his gaze flits up to meet yours. he pushes himself up so that he can lean in to kiss you.

yet the moment you think it might lead somewhere, you hear tiny feet rushing down the hallway. before the door opens, seungcheol is already pouting--not again--but it's gone by the time he turns around to face his son. he's already getting back up to ask what's wrong as he scoops the kid into his arms, shooting you a sorry smile when he looks back. he'll make it up to you sometime...

but you don't mind it, actually. not when you get to see your husband this loving with your son. instead, you decide to follow after them instead, just to feel happy with the growing family that you've created together.


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5 years ago
Well If This Isnt Most Relatable Thing Then I Dont Know What Is?

Well if this isn’t most relatable thing then I don’t know what is?


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4 months ago
Oh Yeah, Here's The Full Render.

Oh yeah, here's the full render.

So I've Been Playing Vice City Lately.

So I've been playing Vice City lately.

Now, you may or may not be wondering: "Did you really make a custom render of Tommy Vercetti doing the pose from that one Robert Downey Jr picture?"

And the answer to that is: "Obviously!" No half measures over here. When I commit to the bit, I fucking COMMIT. Besides, it only took like 2 hours. Time well spent.

Good thing there was a rigged model of Tommy out there cuz there's no amount of committing to the bit that will force me to rig a model. No thank you.

I was originally gonna make this more of a generic meme with something like "when the game everyone tells you is good turns out to be good" cuz I've only gotten around to playing Vice City now, but I decided that sticking to the original format and giving it a GTA spin was the funnier move.

You would not believe how hard it was to find sprites of the Vice City hud, and I still didn't. These are yoinked from an image with the magic wand tool, cuz I didn't feel like downloading the software to pull textures from RenderWare games. Too lazy.


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don't look at me but what if mapicc made zam bite off his own tongue before


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oouuughhhhhh you flatter mee but yessss zam the princess in the tower mapicc the guard dog outside the door lurking by the gate prowling through the halls forcing his presence into your home until even the buuilding feels like a stranger. changed by destructive fights and a fear that keeps you locked in one room for weeks until his broken routine and violent hands are the only familiar things you have BROKEN HANDS esyesyesss your hands are how you explore the world and change it but zam can't be trusted with that any more hands that wear rings forged in promises. you dont get to have that any mpre. you dont get to hurt me any more cant break a promise if you cant make it in the first place you dont speak to anyone else. you don't get the chance to fuck up. fuck me up again. you just are and what you are is mine yeah ......... do you reckon he slashed zam's achilles tendons at some point....... you dont get to run this is your punishment and you have to take it and while mapiccs visits are often they certainly are not regular. hes too impulsive for that. zam never knows when mapicc is just outside its never safe to leave but the cold cold isolation uncertainty of when he will next visit you could make you crave the warmth of your own blood dripping and his scathing words you miss him But then again he's always there because you never know when he is and isnt schroedingers dog there is no escaping this fuckkkkk this started out as some silly gorey musings and now im having the Big Emotions about it :[ mapicc was so hurt by zams betrayal is all this justified to him? necessary? obviously hes willing to go this far but does he see this in a moral way or is it more of a 'i want to hurt him and so i will' does he feel entitled? zam is mine and i can do whatever i want to keep him that way? either way. he is willing to strip the songbird of its voice and bloody its plumage to keep it in the cage if he misses how it was; does he feel guilty? or is it zams fault for forcing them both into this does he prefer zam this way?
2 months ago

Collection of images and memes for anyone who doesn’t know what to draw

Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw
Collection Of Images And Memes For Anyone Who Doesnt Know What To Draw

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2 years ago

Hey can you tell me how did yn escaped from fire or who saved her , or will u be writing about dis in your coming fics

in death valley, the scene with jin and taehyung? yeah that will be explained in the finale! you'll find out who saved her, why that happened in the first place, aaaaandddd the "truth" about what happened to yoongi :)


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6 years ago

THE LITTLE SOUND HE MADE


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9 months ago

I made a fursona (shut up) and she’s a sea slug (SHUT UP) based off my username.

I Made A Fursona (shut Up) And Shes A Sea Slug (SHUT UP) Based Off My Username.

I don’t have any name ideas, so if I ever refer to her, I’ll prolly just call her Slugg :)


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