Broken - Tumblr Posts
I still care for you so much that I have to think of all the wrong things you did to me just to sleep at night.
I put my blood, sweat, and tears to what we had. And you didn't appreciate any of it.
Ha! Funny. I actually thought you cared for a minute there. :)
Well what did happen??
This is a conversation I've had with everybody when I told em the guy I was dating was yelling at me when I told him I wanted to see him more, at this point I hadn't seen him in 2-3 months due to me almost dying of blood poisoning and also going back to Norway to get the best treatment I could get... So under this I was honest and I told the truth, I told him I could have died and I went back home to make sure if I did, at least my family would be there... When I got back, we chatted on Snapchat and never on the phone. During December where I was supposed to spend with him, we talked and I asked him if we were still on for Christmas, he said no and that he wanted to see me during New Years. I said fine and celebrated Christmas with a good friend instead... New Years came around and I didn't hear from him until afterwards, I was all alone, feeling useless, worthless and friendless... I was lost so I called him, then he started yelling saying I demanded too much and that I was a needy piece of shit and nobody could love me* That broke my heart and I said fine, then everything is done then. I'm not the guy you want and clearly you just used me to get something better. We hung up after a 4,5 hours long fight, and I broke down. I did something I hadn't done since I was a child: I cried myself to sleep Days came and went, the words haunting me, making me believe that I was worthless and unloveable. This is a feeling I have to this day, thanks to one guy I lost my faith in me, I lost my self worth.. my heart got crushed, and I am still feeling like crying, just because of one guy, just because I was used. Just because I exist. These are the thoughts running through my mind now, but also I am certain of one thing; boys do cry. It is good for you, but I also am looking at the future, being comfortable in my own skin and also shake it off... *he also called me the following but due to story elements I decided to add it here: ugly, fat, loser, weak, useless, worthless, selfish, annoying, unattractive, I should have killed myself, kill yourself, and he wanted me to lie down and die... Take this lesson: people change, the charming guy in front of you might not be your knight in shining armour, instead spend time to get to know them before you fall
Tears came
Rolling down my face today. Walking around Dublin City seeing all happy couples, holding hands, embracing, kissing... Just reminded me how lonely my existence is and how I want something real and not standing in the middle of the night at the bus stop crying because you never have been loved by anyone
Where’s the emoji for when your eyes are red from crying but you have a tightly controlled smile anyways to convey the fact that you’re fine when clearly everything is far from okay?
I need that emoji please ok thanks
-Lost In Hollywood- "I'll wait here You're crazy Those vicious streets are filled with strays You should've never gone to Hollywood They find you Two-time you Say you're the best they've ever seen You should've never trusted Hollywood I wrote you And told you You were the biggest fish out here You should've never gone to Hollywood They take you And make you They look at you in disgusting ways You should've never trusted Hollywood" -system of a down I am normally good with words.. But this song made me cry. All those broken dreams and forsaken people. Left on their own. For some it was just a short glimpse in the shiny world of fame, but little did they know, that Hollywood is not where you learn to fly. A road deeper into the depth of the fallen. Left, forsaken and broken. That's all that remains. #Hollywood #cryontheinside #fame #brokendreams #lostinhollywood #forsaken #drugsandalcohol #famouspeople #Stars #systemofadown #brokenwings #thefallen #nohope #nofuture #broken #rip #showmustgoon #nomatter #sadness #actors #singer #sorrow #lizzyeatsart
"And all those secrets, lost in your eyes And all those regrets, you hold inside And all those memories, left by design And all those mysteries, lost in your eyes, lost in your eyes." Finally. :) The longer i edit the photo of a drawing, the more i have no idea, how it turned out. I feel like my old phone camera is not able to catch the energy of the coal and pencil. So i try to balance it with some editing. Hope i succeeded! Have a nice Sunday.☀️ (Song: Sail into the black by Machine Head) • • • • • • #drawing #blackandwhite #art #paper #coal #hurt #needles #blood #creative #mood #emotions #energy #trustandbelieve #girl #broken #pencil #abstract #bonding #sadness #bond #heart #realshit #leftbehind #regrets #fakesmile #lost #lizzyeatsart https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs2y_GNh_i-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8px48wi50x1u
"Feel your pain, you feel mine Go inside each other's mind Just to see what we find Look at shit through each other's eyes But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful, They can all get fucked just stay true to you." Finally. It's. Done. I was afraid i messed up the background, but ey! Turned out okay to me! :-) What do you say? If you listen to the song itself, you might get a better "feeling" to relate to that peace. Song: Beautiful by Eminem . . . . . . . . . .#blackandwhite #pencil #coaldrawing #eminem #beautiful #scars #sticktogether #wounds #artwork #beauty #truestrenght #draw #pencil #paperdrawing #bnw #monochrome #thelost #abstract #loveyourself #lyricsquote #eminemquotes #reminder #broken #nevergiveup #staystrong #pain https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvh0VuzB6f2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=s2qfxd1y11wx
‘Terminator’ for QPOP
The initial premise of Doraemon is basically the plot to Terminator lol A robot is sent back in time by a family member to help stop terrible events that will befall them in the future. Except not the singularity apocalypse, the scourge of mundane day to day Japanese life.
Doraemon as a T-800 crash landing was too funny not to paint. Check it out QPop Shop’s gallery, Q2! Their Doraemon / Fujiko Fumio show will be opening tomorrow, Saturday, July 25. And there will be a limited release of signed prints of my piece at QPop!
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Darabokra törsz, érted? Millió apró szilánkos darabra... Kíváncsi vagyok, mi lesz, ha megvágod magad velük...
I thank you.
I like what i am now, little bit broken. I am glad I am. A few months back I was a complete mess. You left me so broken. And maybe you were sad too. But you’ve found someone new. And you’re happy. By god did that kill me.
I’m glad you did. because if you hadn’t i wouldn’t have realized how little I meant to you. How futile our love was to you. I tried so hard to pretend it was all fine, that seeing the two of you together did not kill me. Heaven only knows the nights i cried myself to sleep.
You told me that you found yourself with her. well good. But i was left behind on the ground to up the pieces of my shattered heart.
Nevertheless i picked myself up. It still hurts, seeing the two of you together, happy, but not as much. I am able to push aside the thoughts of what we were and how we could’ve been. I can look past the hurt and the pain you’ve caused. I may not be able to let myself love again anytime soon, but i will..eventually.
More than anything I’m proud of myself. i picked myself up without anyone. I didn’t need another person’s affection to feel close to whole again. I can’t wait to fall in love again. Maybe this time I’ll fall for someone who’ll love just as deeply and just as honestly as i will them. Maybe this time I’ll do justice to my emotions, to my fears, to my dreams ...and to my love.
I don’t blame you, I thank you.
With love, the one person you meant the world to
I watched this the other day and let’s just say my heart was shattered into a million pieces when I was finished.
‘Um, how is Kasia? Will you say hi to her for me?’
Broken (2012) dir. Rufus Norris
When I'm broke of money and my best friend pays for my meal
