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Request Rules 🩶

No nsfw things but stuff hinting towards it is fine

Fluff and Angst are just <3

I’ll write for:

Mangas/animes:

- My hero academia (boku no hero academia)

- Demon Slayer (Kimetsu No Yaiba)

- Yugioh (All series)

- Beyblade (All series)

- Pokemon

- Glitter Force (Doki Doki and the other one with the fairytale stuff)

- Death Note

- One punch man

- Naruto

- Attack on Titan

- Haikyuu

- Jujitsu Kaisen

- Bakugan (All series)

- Voltron

- Blue Exorcist (season 1)

- Blue Lock (Season 1)

- Dr.Stone (Seasons 1&2)

- Spy Family

- Assassination Classroom (Season 1)

- Tokyo Revengers

- Howls moving castle

Other:

- Six of Crows

- Lockwood and Co

- Harry Potter

- Acotar

Webtoons:

- Marionetta

- My in laws are obsessed with me

- Myst Might Mayhem

- Men of the harem

- Heartbeat Conquest

- Obsidian Bride

- Lore Olympus

- The Princess’s Jewels

- Reporting for duty duchess

- School bus graveyard

Manhwas/Manhuas:

- I shall master this family

- Saving my sweetheart

Please do request my lovelies

aot characters as ocean vuong quotes that haunt me

zeke- “Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined.”

eren- “—Because freedom, I am told, is nothing but the distance between the hunter and its prey.”

armin- “Is that what art is? To be touched thinking what we feel is ours when, in the end, it was someone else, in longing, who finds us?”

erwin- “If you must know anything, know that the hardest task is to live only once.”

ymir- “Days I feel like a human being, while other days I feel more like a sound. I touch the world not as myself but as an echo of who I was. Can you hear me yet? Can you read me?”

reiner - “The truth is we can survive our lives, but not our skin. But you know this already.”

mikasa-  “What were you before you met me?“ “I think I was drowning” “And what are you now?” “Water”

levi- "Maybe a survivor is nothing but the last one to come home, the final monarch that lands on a branch already weighted with ghosts." 

annie- “You once told me that the human eye is God’s loneliest creation. How so much of the world passes through the pupil and still it holds nothing. The eye, alone in its socket, doesn’t even know there’s another one, just like it, an inch away, just as hungry, as empty.”

connie- “Too much joy, I swear, is lost in our desperation to keep it.”

bertholdt- “All freedom is relative—you know too well—and sometimes it’s no freedom at all, but simply the cage widening far away from you, the bars abstracted with distance but still there.”

hange- “How sweet. That rain. How something that lives only to fall can be nothing but sweet.”

jean- “Let no one mistake us for the fruit of violence - but that violence, having passed through the fruit, failed to spoil it.”

sasha- “Don’t we touch each other just to prove we are still here? I was still here once. “

★ 【優起】 「 羽根 」 ☆ ✔ republished w/permission ⊳ ⊳ follow me on twitter

expanding my masterlist further ! attack on titan will now be added if anyone wants to request any characters :)

(please send requests idk what to write lol 😭)

Eren, Jean, Connie, Dazai, Gojo, Zenitsu, Armin, Tanjiro, Reiner, Levi, Matsuda, Tengen, Chuuya, Miguel O' Hara, Hobie Brown,

Eren, Jean, Connie, Ony, Tengen, Dazai, Gojo, Mello, Inosuke, Miles 42

Eren, Jean, Connie, Dazai, Gojo, Zenitsu, Armin, Tanjiro, Misturi, Matsuda, Reiner, Miles, Pav

can the AOT fandom come back? 😔 I need my eren and armin fics🙏🏼🙏🏼 (im considering going to go back to Wattpad to read there help)

guys who just come completely undone under your control. they just admire your sweet touches, basking in your soft, gentle hands and the warmth they bring as you milk their cock dry. grip tight on the base, quick and lengthy thrusts from your fist are the only thing on his mind. your hands felt so nice, your silky skin mixed in with the feeling of a mixture of his translucent milky precum which is leaking from his tip, and your saliva dripped from your puffy pink lips. he could let this moment replay over and over. and you knew he like it too, his angelic and soft whimpers and moans leaving his pretty face. his low half lidded eyes fixed on you and your fist, watching you rhythmically jerk him off. he always preferred your hands over his own.

CHOSO, GOJO, yuji, yuta, ARMIN, CONNIE, shoto, MIDORYIA, denki, kirishima, zenitsu (+any of ur favs!!)

Jealous jealous 

you and Eren are out at the club with your friend group. Someone touches your ass and Eren doesn't like it one bit.

pairing - Eren x fem!reader

Rating: mature (18+)

Content/Trigger Warnings: fluff, angst, jealousy

"Come on Y/N, let's go have fun," Eren said while pulling you to the door. You laughed, "okay okay let's go!" You and Eren hopped into your car and started driving to the club. The drive was only a couple of minutes.

Once you and Eren got there you parked the car and headed into the club. You and Eren walked into the club and sat down at the bar. "What can I get for you two?" The bartender asked. "Just a coke for me and my boyfriend," you answered. The bartender looked at you two and then back at you, "okay coming right up!"

"Oh, look it's Mikasa and Armin, we should go over there and say hi." Eren suggested. "Yea I'll go with you." You both stood up and went to sit down at the table where Mikasa and Armin were.

"Hey guys what's up." Eren greeted them. "Hi, Eren! Hi, Y/N! Where are Connie, Jean, Sasha, and everyone else?" Armin questioned. "They should be here any minute." You replied.

"Hey, Y/N can we go to the bathroom really quick?" Eren asked. You turned and looked at him, "yea sure." You and Eren stood up and went to the bathroom. Once you two got to the bathroom, you saw the line was very long. "This will probably take a while, I'll just wait here," Eren said.

You and Eren were waiting in the long line and you were scrolling through TikTok. Suddenly you felt someone touch your ass. "Oi, don't touch my girl." Eren shouted. You turned around to see a big tall guy towering over you. "And who's gonna stop me?" The man questioned.

You saw Eren's fists tighten and he took a step forward. "I'll fucking stop you, asshole." Eren snarled. You tried to pull him back but he wouldn't budge. Eren pushed you out of the way and tackled the man to the ground. He started punching the man repeatedly.

"Eren, please stop." You cried. "Stop it, please."

He didn't stop. He just kept hitting the man until he was unconscious. The bouncers finally came and broke them up. They threw both of them outside. You ran after them. "Wait, please don't do anything to him." You begged the bouncers.

"Y/N, baby, let me handle this." Eren demanded. He grabbed you by the wrist and pulled you aside.

"Why did you have to get into a fight?" You snapped. "Because he put his hands on you. He deserved it." Eren replied.

"But you didn't have to knock him out. You could have just ignored him and gone about your day." You stated.

"Are you seriously defending him right now? Do you want him to fuck you?" Eren shouted. You looked away.

"I'm done talking to you right now." You turned around and started walking away. "Hey, come back here!" Eren yelled.

"Y/N, I'm sorry, please don't be mad." Eren called out.

"Leave me alone, Eren. I don't want to talk to you." You said as you kept walking away.

You were walking away when you heard him say, "I love you, baby, please forgive me."

"Y/N, come on don't be like that," Eren shouted after you.

"I love you, Eren."

You heard Eren sigh and you kept walking. You were going to leave the club and head home. "Hey, Y/N. Wait, wait, wait, where are you going?" Armin asked.

"Oh hey Armin, I was going to head home," You said.

"But why?" Armin questioned.

"Because Eren and I had a fight."

"A fight about what?"

"Just some dumb shit."

"Well, why don't you stay here and hang out with me and Mikasa. You can talk to Eren about it later." Armin suggested.

"Okay, but if Eren comes over here and starts bothering me, I'm leaving." You told him.

"Don't worry, if he does I'll kick his ass," Armin reassured you.

"Thank you," you said with a smile.

"Hey, where's Eren anyway?" Armin asked.

"He's still outside, probably trying to talk to me," you answered.

"What did he do?" Armin inquired.

"Nothing important."

"Are you sure? It seemed like it was important."

"Armin, it's really nothing, okay?"

"Okay, okay, fine. Whatever."

"Hey, Mikasa," you greeted.

"Hey, Y/N," Mikasa said.

"So what happened between you and Eren?" Mikasa questioned.

"Mikasa, she said it's nothing. If she doesn't want to talk about it, then don't ask," Armin replied.

"No, it's fine. He just got into a fight with some dude and then was being an asshole. We just had a little argument." You explained.

"Why did he get into a fight with someone?" Armin wondered.

"Some guy touched my butt and Eren got mad," you explained.

"Well, did you like it?" Armin asked.

"I didn't even realize it. But I would never cheat on him, even if someone tried something with me," you answered.

"Why do you think I didn't say anything?" Mikasa interjected.

"I guess because you're used to seeing that type of behavior from him," Armin reasoned.

"I'm going to go home, see ya guys." You walked away and left the club. You went to your car and drove home.

Once you got home you sat on the couch and turned on the TV.

You heard a knock on the door. You didn't bother getting up, thinking it was probably just the neighbors or someone selling something. You heard the knock again and went to go see who it was.

"Y/N," Eren's voice was heard through the door. You didn't answer. "Baby, open the door, please."

"Why? So, you can yell at me more? I don't want to deal with your shit right now, Eren."

"I'm sorry, please forgive me. I shouldn't have gotten so mad. I was just so worried about you."

"Well, you should have thought about that before you acted the way you did."

"I know, I know, I'm sorry. I won't do it again, I promise."

"Fine."

"Can I come in?"

"No."

"Why not?"

"Because I'm mad at you."

"I know, but can I at least come in and talk to you?"

"Fine."

Eren came in and closed the door behind him. "Listen, Y/N, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have gotten so angry. I should have just left it alone and walked away."

"You're right, you shouldn't have."

"I know, I shouldn't have. I shouldn't have been so harsh and mean. I should have listened to you. I'm sorry."

"It's fine."

"It's not fine. You're still mad at me."

"Yes, I'm still mad at you. You acted like an asshole and it made me uncomfortable."

"I know, I know, and I'm sorry. I shouldn't have gotten so upset. I'm sorry."

"Whatever."

"Do you forgive me?"

"Not really."

"What can I do to make it up to you?"

"I don't know."

"Will you ever forgive me?"

"Maybe."

"That's not fair."

"Life isn't fair, Eren."

"Fine, can I at least sleep on the couch tonight?"

"If you want."

"I love you, baby. I'm sorry. I really am."

"I know. I love you too, Eren."

"Please don't stay mad at me."

"I can't promise that."

"Just give me one more chance. I'll be good, I swear."

"Fine. One more chance."

"Thank you."

"Just make sure you behave next time."

"I will. I promise."

"I know, but make sure."

"I will. Thank you."

"You're welcome."

Eren went over and gave you a kiss.

"Goodnight, baby," Eren said.

"Goodnight, Eren," you replied.

Love affair

you and Eren met at the gym and decided to go out for drinks. The two of you have one two many drinks and one thing leads to the other

pairing - Eren x fem!reader

Rating: mature (18+)

Content/Trigger Warnings: smut, cheating, short but sweet and (smutty)

I had always been attracted to Eren, the tall, muscular man who worked out at the same gym as me. One day, I finally gathered the courage to approach him.

"Hey, I've seen you around here before," I said, smiling. "I'm Y/n. What's your name?"

"Eren," he replied, returning my smile. "Nice to meet you, Y/n."

We struck up a conversation, and before I knew it, we were exchanging numbers. We started texting each other constantly, and soon, we were meeting up for drinks after our workouts.

One night, after a few too many drinks, we found ourselves back at my place. I couldn't resist any longer - I jumped on top of him and started kissing him passionately.

"I've wanted to do this for so long," I whispered in his ear.

"Me too," he replied, his hands exploring my body.

We undressed each other slowly, taking in every inch of each other's bodies. I couldn't believe how turned on I was - I had never felt this way before.

"I want you to fuck me without a condom," I whispered in his ear.

He hesitated for a moment, but I could see the desire in his eyes. "Are you sure?" he asked.

"Yes," I replied, nodding. "I want to feel you inside me, without anything between us."

He didn't need any more convincing. He flipped me over onto my back and entered me, slowly at first, then faster and harder.

"Oh, fuck," I moaned, feeling him deep inside me.

"You feel so good," he groaned, his hands gripping my hips.

I wrapped my legs around him, pulling him deeper inside me. I could feel myself getting closer and closer to orgasm.

"I'm going to cum," I gasped, my nails digging into his back.

"Cum for me," he growled, thrusting harder and faster.

And then I was cumming, my body shaking with pleasure. He followed soon after, collapsing on top of me.

We lay there for a few moments, panting and sweating. I could feel his semen inside me, and it felt amazing.

"That was incredible," I whispered, kissing his neck.

"Yeah, it was," he replied, smiling.

But then my phone beeped, reminding me that I was supposed to be meeting my boyfriend for dinner. I had completely forgotten about him in the heat of the moment.

I quickly got dressed, my mind racing. I couldn't believe what I had just done.

"I have to go," I said, avoiding Eren's gaze.

"Okay," he replied, looking confused.

Would you smoke with him 🚬?

Would you smoke with him 🚬?

Soo... Now that the 4th season part 2 is coming soon I have decided so watch aot from the beginning ( I just have read the manga this far) so pray for me ig?

it's so try

EMs scraping the bottom of the barrel trying to make it seem like Jean is a bad person, they said Jean took advantage of Mikasa and had his way with her, like omfg these people need to go to a park and touch some grass.

Some people doesn't understand Jean's character at all, he's one of the best written characters in the entire manga. Sadly, some people only see him as the man who wants to steal Mikasa from Eren and keep her to himself.

If Jean actually wanted to take advantages of Mikasa, he would've took the chance back in chapter 116 when he had the chance. Jean knows how much Eren means to Mikasa but he respects her feelings and doesn't even dare to interfere in her life.

Instead of talking badly about Eren and make him look bad, he defended him! He knows Eren well and would never try to take advantages of Mikasa when she's hurt because that's not Jean at all. Jean is very respectful and he's not that type of guy.

If you read the manga properly and understand the characters, you would know or notice that Jean actually cares a lot about Eren and loves him. He also cares about Mikasa more than himself, he's one of the most selfless characters in the manga, but if you think otherwise, you should re-read the manga.

this pic goes so unnecessarily hard

*credits to @ooohladymaria*

In spite of the issues I may have with the OVA and its deviations from the manga I will say that the way they animate Levi throughout is 🤌

Underground Levi lives in the front right part of my brain at all times ♡

Journal

This did not at all go where I thought it would, but it’s here. This is my first X Reader I’ve done so if you have some input, it would be greatly appreciated-

includes: Levi, Y/N

warnings: Mentions of dark thoughts

length: 2,535 words

"Cadet!" 

You were quick to glance over your shoulder, wondering how you've messed up this time. You were just about to leave the mess hall, so you were probably going to be scolded for being the last one out, or for not eating again. Levi always snapped about how he needs you at your best.

"You forgot this," the captain said, his stoney blue eyes narrowing as yours widened, "Or did you leave it on purpose?"

It was your journal, the one you were always buried in whenever you could be. You did leave it on purpose, hoping someone would find it and save you from yourself. Hoping that someone would notice all of the changes in your behavior, hoping someone would hear your silent screams. Yet, seeing that it was Levi fucking Ackerman who returned the journal? You wished you had kept suffering alone.

"And it has so many…" Levi hesitated, almost like he was trying to find the right words to string together. "So many horrific thoughts written inside of it."

You could practically feel how serious he was while he gripped your prized possession just a bit tighter. You couldn't handle the growing silence, so you broke it.

"I should know. It's mine, after all." He didn't find your joke very funny. 

Levi opened his mouth, picking his next words carefully, "What's going on with you? You haven't been yourself recently."

You mentally swore, fingers twitching at your side. Levi didn't fail to notice, making his abnormal concern grow.

"What do you mean, Captain? I'm perfectly fine." As much as you wished the forced chuckle in your voice would change his way of thinking, it didn't.

"I'm more than certain something is happening with you," his voice grew more pointed as he stared at you, "There's no point in trying to hide it. Just spit it out."

"Why would you even bother asking?" Your muttered question left your lips before you could stop it.

"I want to know because I care about you. That's something a lot of people can't say, so don't go off wasting my support," Levi's tone didn't change and you sucked in a much needed breath. 

You wearily watched him place the journal on one of the long tables in the room, the soft thud reminding you of how many hours have gone into fruitless attempts of venting out your pain.

"Stop being stubborn and tell me what's going on, cadet." He inched closer, and you stepped back in response, eyes darting to the table.

"Once again, Jean and Eren left their spots disgusting. Do you want me to clean up, or would you rather chew them out yourself?" You gave a tight smile, forcing yourself to look back at him.

"Don't change the subject," he growled, a strange blaze flaring up in his eyes. Levi noticed how you tensed and he sighed to calm himself. "The things that you wrote in that book," he started, never once looking away from you, "Those were some seriously dark thoughts, and if you honestly do feel that way, you need to talk about it. So, stop trying to be the coldhearted badass and let me know what's running through your mind."

He sounded like a parent trying to convince a child to admit they broke something. It was a bit frightening in all honesty. 

You didn't say anything, teeth digging painfully into your tongue so you would keep quiet. You had just now noticed you'd been staring at the wooden floorboards this whole time, and yet you didn't stop.

Levi noticed that you weren't going to contribute, so he did it himself.

"What are you afraid of? Do you think I'm going to be mad at you?" 

You could've kicked yourself when your panicked chuckle wormed its way into the one-sided conversation. 

"Look at me," he demanded. You didn't listen, a thick gulp being your only reaction. "Cadet, look at me." This time it came out as a snarl, and you obeyed out of pure fear. 

Levi shut his eyes for just a moment, a heavy sigh leaving him as he tried to compose himself again. You both knew that he wasn't great with feelings, but he was trying. 

"I'm not mad at you. You can tell me whatever you're going through and I'll listen. Don't ever be afraid to let someone know how you feel, that is the only way someone can understand you." You had to clench your jaw to keep a snarky remark from making the situation worse. "Stop hiding from people, stop holding on to these emotions, and thinking that by some miracle things are going to work out by keeping silent. Things don't ever work out that way, and it only prolongs the pain. It only gives time for shit to get worse. So, stop being an idiot and just tell me what's going on already." 

"You sound like you're speaking from experience," you muttered after letting his words sink in. 

You didn't get a response, so you let your gaze lower, but not drop completely. Levi waited for you. The Levi Ackerman patiently waited for you to let go of some agony. So you did.

"Sometimes," it was difficult for you to refill your lungs with fresh air, "I get these recurring dreams that make me think about the things I'd kill to forget." A fly could be heard over your quiet voice, but you had spoken, and Levi found it a big step forward.

"I see," he spoke more to himself than anything. "So that's why…" 

His words trailed off as he remembered walking past the cadet sleeping quarters in the ungodly hours of the morning and often hearing whimpers of fear and sleepy pleads for directions on what to do. His eyebrows furrowed slightly.

"You've been having those, too, haven't you?" He paused, knowing damn well that the night terrors weren't anything but a small piece to the puzzle. But it was progress. "It's not uncommon. Everyone gets those nightmares."

You resisted the urge to insist that's the reason why your problems weren't such a big deal.

"Having thoughts about the people that you've lost, the people that you'd cared about," Levi tightened his jaw, taking a deep breath through his nose and not saying anything for a heartbeat. He changed his wording, "You're allowed to feel. You're allowed to grieve and to be angry, to be hurt." It was like he was reading from the list of your emotional insecurities.

It was starting to get painfully tense, so you attempted to redirect the topic of choice.

"That's funny, considering who's speaking. You only seem slightly agitated whenever you hear about the trouble Eren is constantly causing. I'm surprised you don't have grey's, old man," you laughed in spite of yourself, the noise tense and borderline frantic.

"Writing these thoughts in this book," of course he wouldn't budge. The man's like a stone wall, despite his height. "It's probably your way of coping with what’s happened to you." 

You swallowed, glancing away before sucking on your tongue to distract yourself.

"But, you have to be able to talk to someone as well, to be able to hear your problems leave you." Levi didn't say anything after that, quietly observing how you tilted your head up to stop your brimming tears from falling.

He surprised you by taking a seat on the table's bench, a good four or five feet from your journal. "Come here," he said gently, patting his legs, "You look like you need to be held. If you feel comfortable, that is." 

"On your lap?" You asked, chest tightening. You knew all it was going to take was one hug- just one god damned hug- and you'd crumble.

"Yes, on my lap. Come on," Levi couldn't care less about your height or weight, none of it bothering him in the slightest. 

You hesitated, the exit door seeming all too tempting. You didn't leave, though, and it wasn't because Levi would catch you if you were to run, nor that he would only confront you more forcefully in the future. You knew you needed this- that's the whole reason you had left your secrets behind. But, fuck, it was so hard to make yourself sit on his lap.

"There we go." His encouragement nearly ripped you to shreds.

"What are you? Santa Claus?" You mused, eyes burning holes into your lap with how determined you were to look anywhere but. 

"Go on, let it out," Levi pushed you to speak again, this time far more effective.

"Let what out exactly? My Christmas list?" Your voice cracked, heart painfully throbbing.

"Come on, cadet," Levi breathed again, sickeningly gentle eyes looking at you.

"I wish for a cup of hot chocolate with cookies on the side," you forced a twisted smile on your face as burning hot tears started to slip down your cheek. "Maybe at least one good night's rest. O-Or a chance to go back in time." 

You were breaking down, caving in on yourself as you choked on a sob.

"I've got you."

But you weren't alone. The captain was rubbing comforting shapes into your back.

You shook violently, tremors growing worse before you gave in completely. Harsh sobs thrashed your body as you buried your face into Levi's chest, letting every bit of your pain out.

"It's alright," Levi's voice warded off the ringing in your ears. "It's going to be okay. Do you hear me? You're going to be okay."

Promises of betterment and words of comfort soothed you as you soaked his uniform with tears. Tears that you've held in for far too long, tears that represented your suffering.

"You did all you could. Stop blaming yourself for whatever happened or you'll never be able to move forward. If all you keep doing is holding onto the past, you'll stay stuck in this shitty, painful cycle," Levi told you exactly what you needed to hear as he alternated between pats and rubs on your back. 

He took a deep breath, and you heard his heart rate kick up as your crying quieted, though you didn't- couldn't- stop.

"I had two friends who died on the same damn day. People I considered my family- gone, just like that. People I'd just met, people I had just been acquainted with that morning, died later that day, too," he shared his pain, opening castrated wounds all for you. "Sons, daughters, sisters, brothers, fathers, mothers," he listed, voice wavering before he righted himself, holding you closer. "Dead. Gone. And who was in charge? I was." You felt his chest steeply rise and fall as you sniffled. 

"There are things that you'll have to live with, situations you'll be placed in that you'll have to get through." His thumb and index finger captured your chin, forcing you to look at him. "I just want you to remember that you don't have to find a way on your own. You don't have to feel like you need to take all the burden, all the pain, by yourself." 

The hand that was on your back navigated to the Scouts emblem on your jacket, gently thumbing at it. 

"That's why you have us," there was a smile dancing in his voice, though it never quite reached his face. "We can support each other." 

Your tears had calmed down to a few rogue leftovers, and you found yourself ready to slip off of his lap. Levi didn't seem to mind the massive wet stain that bled through his white button-up and onto his peck. Didn't seem to on the outside, but you knew he was a cleaning fanatic.

"My office, my doors, are always open," his tone turned sarcastically bitter, "Unless I have paperwork to fill in, or I'm cleaning up Jaeger's damn mess." He relished the small giggle that left your lips. "If neither of the two are happening, you can always come to me."

He narrowed his eyes at you, lightly flicking your forehead.

"You hear me? Always, cadet." He gently smiled at you. "Not only are my doors open, but my arms are open, too." 

You glanced away to hide the sparkle in your eyes. Your attention returned to the captain, however, when a warm hand found itself on your shoulder.

"I know that feeling of thinking everything is your fault," he swallowed, casting his gaze down before looking back at you. "That feeling of being disappointed in yourself, down in the gutter, beating yourself up and wishing that it was you instead." There was a solemn look in his eyes before he spoke again, "I know that feeling, and I know how it eats you alive." 

Levi pulled you in for another hug, resting his chin on your shoulder as he shuddered in another breath. 

"I also know the feeling of being comforted. Of being reminded that there is a tomorrow, and that things can get better." He gave you a small squeeze before pulling away, both hands on your shoulders now. "That if you make it past today, you can make it past tomorrow, too." 

He allowed you to sit back, and the words he spoke were more than welcomed.

"After everything that you've been through, there is no storm that comes your way that you're not strong enough to face," the proud gleam in his eyes spoke volumes. "And, if you feel like you can't handle it alone, you can face it with me by your side. I'll always be here to brace the storm with you."

Nothing could prepare you for what he said next.

"That is a promise, cadet."

Levi never made promises- not like this. The only thing he's ever promised was to dropkick Eren if he ever went so long without showering again.

"Now breathe," his voice reverted back to that gentle, but commanding tone. He took a deep breath with you, in and out before staring you dead in the eyes. "Everything is going to be okay. It might not be perfect, but we will make it through this. Every battle has an end. Don't go giving up until you find your ending." You felt the grip on your shoulder tighten, his Adam's apple bobbing as he continued, "Please... Hold on for me." 

That left you picking your jaw off the floor before Levi mentioned it, not able to do anything but nod. You, a cadet, had gotten him to say please.

"There is so much to live for in this life," he noticed your doubt before you even said a word. "Let's start living for the people who don't get to, who don't have a choice."

A comforting silence settled into the atmosphere. Levi smiled before standing, mentally double-checking if you were okay. "Oh, and one more thing?" You perked up when he spoke.

"I'll break your fucking legs if you talk about me being soft, cadet."

Ah. There was the Levi you knew.

"Wouldn't dream of it, captain," you said gently, proudly saluting him as he walked towards the back exit.

You would never know, but an extremely proud smile graced his features as he watched you hesitate before throwing the journal away.

My version of a gender bent Eruri ig- You can make a character of your own here:

https://picrew.me/image_maker/114808

Also I swear I'm almost done with a story 😃

Typically

This makes many references to No Regrets (an insight on Levi before he enrolled in the Scouts.) I also tried a new writing style, so please, give me feedback!

includes: Erwin, Levi

warnings: alcoholic themes, depression, PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder), mentions of suicidal thoughts/actions

length: 2,028 words

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Erwin Smith was typically content in his mattress by 10:30, praying to whatever gods that may (or may not) be out there that his slumber would be blissful and refreshing. He typically knew of his subordinates' locations and their relative mental states this late into any given night. He typically had most of his paperwork signed and stacked into a neat, organized pile.

Though tonight, as trepidation rolled over him in slow, progressing waves, Erwin Smith was neither content nor situated in a well-put-together office. He did not know where the Captain was or when the elusive man would return. He did not know beforehand that multiple contracts would need the Captain's signature. Hell, Erwin did not know if Levi could even write in cursive. At the moment, he did not know a lot of things.

Erwin wasn't exactly enthusiastic about experiencing these feelings of troubling uncertainty.

The dense thud of staggering boots on the half-rotted wooden flooring impeded Erwin's vexing thoughts. Moving from his spot by the window that overlooked the training grounds, he hastily stalked towards his office door. Yet as his fingertips were mere inches from the handle, the door slammed open, catching the Commander off guard.

Erwin back-stepped as no one other than Levi himself lost his footing from kicking the door open. The door frame was the only thing that aided Levi's attempt at steadying his balance; Erwin was far too focused on darting his bewildered eyes over Levi's condition.

Was the blunt and foul-mouthed Levi Ackerman. . . Drunk?

No, that couldn't be right. The man despised everything about alcohol: the lasting effects, the heavy smell, the noxious health problems. Every time the Corps tried to get Levi to drink, he had remarked about booze being nothing more than poison marketed as a miracle tonic. But, what else could explain the unfocused eyes that were typically sharp and observant or the swaying small frame that was typically nimble and composed?

"Have you been drinking, Levi? You look terrible."

The vicious scowl Erwin received told him that the way he worded his concern was extremely misinterpreted.

"Oh, fuck you, jackass. Not everyone can look like a shining star, Smith." Levi's words were unnaturally slurred, further proving what Erwin refused to accept. "Get outta my way and let me in."

Erwin cautiously stepped to the side- as he'd rather keep this peculiar sight to himself and spare the Captain's dignity. Levi's shoulder shoved against Erwin's bicep as he stumbled into the Commander's office. A snarl remarking Erwin's height was woven into the tense atmosphere of the room.

"Where have you been?" Erwin asked as he gently shut the door, keeping an apprehensive gaze on Levi.

He simply received a distracted scoff. Erwin took a deep breath before he huffed out of his nose. He watched as Levi fumbled through various unlocked drawers in search of who-knows-what.

"Levi-"

"Where's your Devil's water, Smith?" Erwin narrowed his eyes in confusion before Levi, belligerently, elaborated. "Your liquor, dip-shit. Where have you stashed it?"

Erwin pressed his lips into a thin line before he offered a calculated answer, "I don't hide alcohol in my office." A spiteful string of obscenities left Levi's swollen lips, the drunk balling his fist tight by his sides. "Liar! You're a filthy deceiver, you know that? You're worth less than the shit in the stables! A sleaze bag from the Underground would be more helpful than you!"

Erwin paused, studying Levi like Hange would study a Titan. "Are you okay, Levi?" He knew the question was redundant the moment the words left his lips.

“Fuck!” Levi yelled, tugging on his already loose cravat. “Am I okay? What kind of bullshit question is that? Hell, my uncle used to tell me that life’s like a toilet paper roll; you’re either on a roll or taking shit from some asshole- and you know what? You’re that asshole, Smith!”

"Be careful of the open window, Levi," Erwin warned, as polished and unwavering as ever. His indifference to the slew of insults and profanities made Levi's blood boil.

Erwin only moved closer when the Captain disregarded his warning and continued to near the dangerously open casement. Erwin tuned out the vulgarities that were continuously hurled at him with an intense enmity, the gears clicking together in his head.

There was a chance Levi's destination was through the window- a chance Erwin was not willing to take.

"What are you doing? You're going to fall out," Erwin said more forcefully.

The change in the Commander's tone didn't seem to phase Levi, who was resting his forearms on the window sill. As Levi's weight shifted to his unstable upper body, Erwin could feel his heartbeat pounding in his throat, temples, fingertips- everywhere except his chest.

Levi went quiet, his drunken tantrum utterly forgotten as childlike wonder filled his eyes. In the moment of calm after the storm, Erwin couldn't fail to notice that Levi looked so much younger when he wasn't so pent up. The Captain was significantly more demonstrative when he was intoxicated; and may it be good or bad, Erwin was content with Levi seeming mortal.

"He used to hate heights, and she smoked him for it," Levi broke the moment of silence with hardly a whisper. "It was all a game to her."

Erwin's features, which were glazed over with faux insouciant, didn't match the curious gaze he studied Levi with. He stood inert, fearful of scaring Levi into a diligent silence or another aggressive episode. Erwin didn't ask for extensive details, nor did he implore Levi to move away from the window again. He simply waited, having an idea of what was plaguing his inebriated soldier's mind.

"You know, when you found me, we were heading to get a job done," Levi spoke so softly that Erwin felt the need to hold his breath to hear him properly.

The Commander took Levi's brief pause as an opening to speak, despite having nothing to say. "Is that so?"

Levi exhaled something grim; something that nearly sounded like an empty chuckle. "Yeah, Smith, it is."

Levi ignored how Erwin wearily moved closer as he adjusted himself further out of the window. The Captain relished in a twisted feeling of pride knowing that he could make his superior jump to aid him, that he could make the man twitch with such a deep sense of uneasiness- so much so that it shone in his perceptive blue eyes.

"Levi, get away from-"

"He was so nervous for the mission, despite it being so. . . " Levi swayed his hand through the night air, searching for the right word after cutting Erwin, and his concerns, off. "So pointless," is what he settled for.

"It was just a run-through," he huffed out a sigh, "check the brothel for any kids, start trouble if there were. Then, haul ass to the surface to get the brats to somewhere safer. Simple, right?"

Erwin swallowed, his gaze settling on Levi's reflection in the mirror.

"But, something always has to fuck me over," Levi spat with a clenched jaw, capturing the window sill in an iron grip. "Isn't that right?! You simply adore dancing all of your puppets around until they can't take it anymore- but you don't stop, do you?!" Levi screamed at the full moon in the sky.

Erwin sharply exhaled through his nose, Levi swaying side to side like empty ODM gear in the breeze. Levi swore and stretched his fingers out to relieve the tension in them.

"I bumped into a guy whose ego was as big as his body. The bastard was huge and wouldn't let it go." Levi hung his head, the stars bringing back memories he'd rather forget. "I think you were there when we had settled the issue and took off."

Erwin remembers like it happened yesterday. He could never forget the first time he saw Levi fly on the Wings of Revolution; it was enchanting.

Levi outstretched his arm, one foot leaving the floor as he reached to the giant moon glowing against the night sky.

"Levi, you need to stop being heedless, or you'll fall and end up dead!" Erwin finally snapped, his hand darting to grab Levi's. He missed his target, the shorter one moving unexpectedly and making Erwin snatch his pale forearm.

The wind from the chill night ruffled the forgotten paperwork on Erwin's desk, Levi's eerily hollow chuckle overlaying the white noise. Empty steel-gray finally looked into Erwin's ocean blues, heavy-lidded and worn thin.

"Don't you know I'm stupid? The hell does 'heedless' mean, blondie?" Levi wore a painful grin.

Erwin furrowed his brow in worry, loosening his grip but not letting go. "Careless," he said gently, thumbing fondly at Levi's flushed skin. "It means. . . Careless."

Levi's bottom lip trembled, and Erwin swore he saw his small body twitch with a hiccup. "Maybe that's what I want, Commander- to end up dead," Levi breathed, sending a cold surge through Erwin.

"Hey, don't say that," Erwin said quickly in a hushed tone. His free hand gently cupped Levi's shoulder.

"Why not?" Levi's voice was so small. It scared Erwin. "Every time I shut my eyes at night, all I see is their faces, hear them call my name." Erwin could feel Levi trembling.

"I know, Levi. By the walls, I know how it feels to begin to go numb. How it is to lose everything close to you, and still need to press onwards," Erwin murmured.

"Oh, sure. You see the face of every comrade that you've sent to death in your dreams. I'm sure you remember each and every soldier." The sarcastic bite in Levi's tone made Erwin unhand the man's arm.

"Excuse me. . ?" Erwin breathed, stupidly hoping he had misheard Levi.

"You don't know how it feels to be looked at like a human shit stain for simply trying to survive! You're just Mr. Fucking Perfect, right?" Levi's fruitless attempt to push Erwin away by his chest only agitated the blonde.

"Another pompous asshole that wouldn't hesitate to judge me from getting on all fours back then just to be able to eat twice a week!" Levi's (false) accusations were making Erwin increasingly angry.

"You're no different than everyone in the Capital-"

"You'd better watch your mouth, Ackerman."

Levi sucked in a short breath so quickly, it made his throat dry up; though, that might've been caused by the snarl of his surname. He didn't get another chance to speak as Erwin loomed over his frame.

"Who gave you an escape route when you had nowhere else to turn? Was it the Capital? Who was it that believed in you when everyone else wanted you to hang? The Capital, perhaps? Apologies, my memory is hazy."

Levi had seen Erwin agitated, seen him berate cadets and superiors alike with no backlash. But the man was always so poised and assured. Sure, the unsettlingly strong fire behind his crystal eyes was never smothered, but it was not once openly expressed.

Until now.

It had Levi- the nephew of Kenny the Ripper, the Captain of the 104th Cadet Corp, Humanity's Strongest Soldier- intimidated enough to shrink in on himself.

"I don't mean to scare you, Levi. I truly don't. But when you have the audacity to lump me into the crowd of discriminatory pedophiles and rapists? After everything I have done for you?" Erwin scoffed, ending his rant.

"I-I... I'm-"

"I don't want you to apologize. It's difficult to believe that you would. It's just not like you," Erwin swallowed thickly as Levi sniffled.

"Levi, I-" Erwin cut himself off, clenching his jaw.

Want you. Need you.

I think I'm in love with you. What a dream it would be to say. But he shouldn't. And he won't.

"You should sober up here while I get work done. How does that sound?" Erwin felt the urge to vomit after those words burned off his tongue.

"Thank you," Levi hardly whispered. "Thank you, Erwin."

Closing his eyes tightly, Erwin nodded, leading Levi to the couch the was sitting against the sidewall.

"Of course, Levi. I would do anything for you."

A very happy and well-deserved birthday to Marco (Freckled Jesus) Bolt

fluff prompt list

"Quit stealing all the pillows!"

"You want a bite?"

"Give me a second and I'll show you."

"What should we name it?"

"You're a dork."

"Why are your feet so cold?"

"Stop that, I'm ticklish!"

"Your hands are so warm!"

"You smell really nice."

"Your hair is so soft."

"You're my new pillow."

"Turn around, I'm giving you a massage."

"I think I love you."

"Can I kiss you?"

"Hold my hand."

"It's not morning yet."

"Stay a little longer?"

"You're so perfect."

"I'll always be here for you."

"You were right all along."

"Take my coat, it's cold out here."

"You've got some flour on your cheek."

"You could just put your feet in my lap, you know."

"I wouldn't change a thing about you."

"Shut up and kiss me."

"We could try cuddling."

"Stop being so cute."

"Are you okay?"

"Our relationship is the most important thing in my life."

"You can sleep, I'll keep you safe."

"Don't worry, I'll take care of everything."

"It wasn't your fault."

"What's wrong?"

"I'm not going anywhere."

"Oh! You're jealous!"

"Can we stay like this forever?"

"I missed you so much."

"Give me attention."

"When I'm with you, I'm home."

"Is that my shirt?"

"This is new."

"Would you just hold still?"

"You're family."

"They didn't deserve you."

"Rumor has it, I make you nervous."

"Are you flirting with me?"

"You seem all tough, but I know it's all an act. You're a softie."

"Funny, coming from you."

"Really? Right now?"

"Let's go somewhere- anywhere!" Heavily inspired by @merakiaes so go look at their page- they're amazing!