helldenizen - An abyss of procrastination
helldenizen
An abyss of procrastination

  An aroace trying to draw | I have only two moods: normal art and unapologetic shitpost art.

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helldenizen
4 months ago
What If Two Guys In A Queerplatonic Relationship Were Kissing Sloppy And Hugging?

What if two guys in a queerplatonic relationship were kissing sloppy and hugging?


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helldenizen
4 months ago
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard
Oc Guy Moodboard

oc guy moodboard

helldenizen
4 months ago
And It's A Pretty Shade Of Grey, It Makes The Woodwork Eat Away

And it's a pretty shade of grey, it makes the woodwork eat away

helldenizen
4 months ago
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

helldenizen
5 months ago
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw
Been Stricken By The Beauty Of The Grotesque Lately. Consider This A Love Letter To @quezify Btw

been stricken by the beauty of the grotesque lately. consider this a love letter to @quezify btw

helldenizen
5 months ago
THE SPIRAL

THE SPIRAL


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helldenizen
5 months ago
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut
Resolve Preview; More Info Beneath The Cut

resolve preview; more info beneath the cut

resolve is a project i have been working on since 2019, when I was 29. I called it a “zine” to start but turned out more like an art book; it has over 120 ilustrated pages, interspersed with narrative text-only pages that tell a brief story of my experiences (largely internal) with CPTSD, complex dissociative disorder, and recovery.

When finished, I plan to have resolve available in full online for no cost. I looked for people’s stories to connect with when I was trying to manage symptoms I couldn’t understand, and I wanted to provide my own in spirit of that.

The entirety of resolve is written and thumbnailed. No other previews of the text will be posted anywhere until resolve is complete, but I reguarly post WIPs to this blog under the resolve tag because I enjoy sharing my art with others. However, finishing the rest is going to take a long, long time.

I am currently quite disabled due to chronic illnesses, particuarly since the beginning of 2023, and I am unable to work. I scrape together the few hours of ability to work in a week I am able to work on resolve because, to put it rather plainly, my health concerns had me fearing that I could drop dead someday before resolve is finished and I decided picking through it however slowly was better than sitting with that fear constantly. I will continue focusing on it as long as I am waiting for my health to stabilize enough to start freelancing/otherwise working again.

If you are interested in supporting resolve, the best place for that at the moment is my Patreon.

Alternatively, in the short term, please consider looking at my partner's top surgery GFM; their surgery is scheduled for April 2024 and they work fulltime to provide for me, and the GFM has slowed down of late.

None of resolve would exist without them, I hardly doubt I would, and they have done nothing but support me, emotionally and materially.

Thank you for reading.

helldenizen
5 months ago
Illustrated tarot card for the seven of swords. The composition is hectic and busy, with different scenes and panels like a piece of glass that has cracked. Against a dark blue-green background is Félix, a small man with pale skin and long brown hair, running with his cane in his hand and staring back over his shoulder with a look of shock, only one eye visible. Mirrored images of his eye and the eyes of animals surround his head. A large golden horseshoe hovers just under the sole of his boot. Against a pink-orange background is Macha, a creature with a spiky black texture and long, tangled, thorny hair. Macha's clawed hands grasp out from their own cracked panes to reach for Félix. Several shards of glass show a sky with a dot matrix print background texture, and the galloping front legs of a black horse. One inset shows the golden jaws of a carnyx horn, spewing black blood. Near the bottom, against the wheat beneath the horse hooves, are the silhouettes of seven swords.

VII OF SWORDS

helldenizen
5 months ago

I'm currently trying to finish a drawing before my birthday, couse brain tells me I need to have it finished until then to rest properly(it's only few hours until the day in my time zone). And I get a notification from steam that hades 2 is in early access now, and oh boy do I know what I'm gonna be doing the moment the clock strikes 12.


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helldenizen
5 months ago
helldenizen - An abyss of procrastination

Human Bill Cipher

(Based on Alex Hirsch's "canon" design)

And just to be clear, writing dissertations at me justifying why he should instead be a conventionally attractive twink will involuntarily cause me to draw him with even fewer teeth.


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helldenizen
5 months ago

Ceaseless agony of the sound eating beast

Ceaseless Agony Of The Sound Eating Beast
helldenizen
6 months ago
Really Wanted To Draw Irving With Some Retro Camera.

Really wanted to draw Irving with some retro camera.


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helldenizen
6 months ago
This Is A Bunch Of Sketches That I Made In Back In January, But Forgot To Post.

This is a bunch of sketches that I made in back in January, but forgot to post.


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helldenizen
6 months ago

You know, I've heard a few times that mental illness stuff gets more intense by the spring, and I always thought that was some exaggeration. But uhhh...after last two months I think there might be something to it, cause... uhhh, um, yeah


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helldenizen
6 months ago
helldenizen - An abyss of procrastination
helldenizen
6 months ago
helldenizen - An abyss of procrastination
helldenizen
6 months ago

it's time to put an end to da A-POCKY-LIPS!!!

officially revealing our newest game: GREAT GOD GROVE

suck up dialogue boxes n’ use them like items to befriend gods & humans alike, and save the whole dang world!! WISHLIST NOW ON STEAM


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helldenizen
7 months ago
Arent U Having Fun?

Aren’t u having fun?


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helldenizen
7 months ago
Going To The Kitchen (forest) For A 5 Am Snack (flesh)

going to the kitchen (forest) for a 5 am snack (flesh)

helldenizen
8 months ago
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?
What Is A Timorvas?

What is a Timorvas?

helldenizen
8 months ago
Art with a mostly aged paper texture. Pascal, a white man with long brown hair, is kneeling on a dancefloor with stylised airbrushed smoke and a discoball overhead, sparkles flying through the blurry air. He wears a sparkly white flared jumpsuit cut below his tits and a glittery jacket, along with thick stacked platforms. He holds a microphone and has one hand up to cup his face. A black crack in the image, which does not have the aged paper texture or blurriness of the rest of the drawing, covers half his face and extends to the top of the frame with a scratchy pencil cloud texture inside. A letter 'K' made of light bulbs hangs up in the background behind him.

King of Pentacles

helldenizen
8 months ago
Dont Invite

Don’t invite

helldenizen
8 months ago

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait