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What if two guys in a queerplatonic relationship were kissing sloppy and hugging?

oc guy moodboard

And it's a pretty shade of grey, it makes the woodwork eat away

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

been stricken by the beauty of the grotesque lately. consider this a love letter to @quezify btw

THE SPIRAL

resolve preview; more info beneath the cut

resolve is a project i have been working on since 2019, when I was 29. I called it a “zine” to start but turned out more like an art book; it has over 120 ilustrated pages, interspersed with narrative text-only pages that tell a brief story of my experiences (largely internal) with CPTSD, complex dissociative disorder, and recovery.

When finished, I plan to have resolve available in full online for no cost. I looked for people’s stories to connect with when I was trying to manage symptoms I couldn’t understand, and I wanted to provide my own in spirit of that.

The entirety of resolve is written and thumbnailed. No other previews of the text will be posted anywhere until resolve is complete, but I reguarly post WIPs to this blog under the resolve tag because I enjoy sharing my art with others. However, finishing the rest is going to take a long, long time.

I am currently quite disabled due to chronic illnesses, particuarly since the beginning of 2023, and I am unable to work. I scrape together the few hours of ability to work in a week I am able to work on resolve because, to put it rather plainly, my health concerns had me fearing that I could drop dead someday before resolve is finished and I decided picking through it however slowly was better than sitting with that fear constantly. I will continue focusing on it as long as I am waiting for my health to stabilize enough to start freelancing/otherwise working again.

If you are interested in supporting resolve, the best place for that at the moment is my Patreon.

Alternatively, in the short term, please consider looking at my partner's top surgery GFM; their surgery is scheduled for April 2024 and they work fulltime to provide for me, and the GFM has slowed down of late.

None of resolve would exist without them, I hardly doubt I would, and they have done nothing but support me, emotionally and materially.

Thank you for reading.

VII OF SWORDS

I'm currently trying to finish a drawing before my birthday, couse brain tells me I need to have it finished until then to rest properly(it's only few hours until the day in my time zone). And I get a notification from steam that hades 2 is in early access now, and oh boy do I know what I'm gonna be doing the moment the clock strikes 12.

Human Bill Cipher

(Based on Alex Hirsch's "canon" design)

And just to be clear, writing dissertations at me justifying why he should instead be a conventionally attractive twink will involuntarily cause me to draw him with even fewer teeth.

Ceaseless agony of the sound eating beast

Really wanted to draw Irving with some retro camera.

This is a bunch of sketches that I made in back in January, but forgot to post.

You know, I've heard a few times that mental illness stuff gets more intense by the spring, and I always thought that was some exaggeration. But uhhh...after last two months I think there might be something to it, cause... uhhh, um, yeah

it's time to put an end to da A-POCKY-LIPS!!!

officially revealing our newest game: GREAT GOD GROVE

suck up dialogue boxes n’ use them like items to befriend gods & humans alike, and save the whole dang world!! WISHLIST NOW ON STEAM

Aren’t u having fun?

going to the kitchen (forest) for a 5 am snack (flesh)

What is a Timorvas?

King of Pentacles

Don’t invite

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait